i cant fathom my own emotions. i have been so completely inundated with emotions that my head is on backwards ( Read more... )

i cant emphasize my gratitude to james and how well she has treated me in the passing weeks/months. she has been an outstanding individual as always and i hope she trulewy does know just how strongly i feel for her. i know you can be moody, and i know i can too. but please, dont take such things out on me. i am here for you as always ( Read more... )

a crazy thing came over me in the past few days/weeks that i hav ebeen busy. i havent let myself be this happy in a long time; if ever ( Read more... )

well, its been a real busy past few days. im so busy having to look over my shoulder at ALL times, b/c WHO knows what could happen ( Read more... )

let me tell you alittle about kids ( Read more... )

been a helaciously busy few days starting with me having to work on my day off, sunday ( Read more... )

This morning i saw happiness. i saw this man with somehting in his eyes. i saw despair, hurt, pain and strife. but beyond that, i saw hope, wishfulness and above all ( Read more... )

so once again, i didnt go to bed untill 6am.... i watched the morning news and almost made coffee, but its not the same. i hope this comes around. i hope that one day soon realization will hit and i will be viewed as the person i am. i hope SOMEONE will notice ME for a change. notice what i am. what i have to offer. what i have given ( Read more... )

i think im done trying. i want to continue, but it only wrecks me. i have to learn how to sleep again. i have to be able to look at the ocean again. i have to be able to go back into my old, happy routine. but its empty. its so odd. i had no idea it would be like htis. i got knocked on my ass so unexpectedly, it took me back. now im dealing with it ( Read more... )

so my friend taylor is back in town and we hang out at pbodies tonight. it was cool seeing him again.. but im reminded why i stopped hanging out with the usual crowd there. i hate the atmosphere and i hate th edrama. im done with drama. so i escaped and found a new group of friends and its been great ever since. you guys all roxor. but it seems, ( Read more... )