Chapter 29 - Happiness
~Taylor~
I decided to take Trish to a nice little Italian resturant that Zac and I had found yesterday. It was so nice to be sitting here with her and talking, I felt like she really understood me. We talked about her job and she told me about touring with the Backstreet Boys and delievering Brian and Leighanne's baby, As she talked about it I could see her eyes twinkle...knowing she adored what she did and loved children.
"We toured all over the US and the minute we hit California their little boy decided he didn't want to wait anymore to come into the world." She said smiling over at me as I smiled back.
"I remember when Nat went into labor with Ezra, there was no better feeling in the the world then watching your child be born into this world." I told her as I felt a tear fall down my cheek, I blushed for I didn't want her to see that tear.
"Oh Taylor, I have heard that it is an amazing experiance, one that I hope to feel someday, and just to let you know...never hide your tears from me, it shows me your a caring man! I can tell you love Ezra and you are a wonderful dad. What happend to your marriage Taylor? If I can ask." She said to me, reaching over and wiping my tear away.
"You can ask me anything and I will tell you." I told her as I felt her hand take mine into her small hand.
"In all honesty, my dad forced me to marry her for what I had done, you see our family has this strong belief that you take responsibilty for what you do and to them I shamed them, I had sex before I was married and well...you can see the results sitting back at the hotel. But you know, it wasen't just my fault, I believed something that Nat told me and now..there is my child that is going to be put through a child custody battle because of mistakes, I will never regret Ezra ever!!" I told her putting my head down so she couldn't see my face.
She took her hand and lifted my face to look into my eyes.."Taylor, I know you will never regret him, your dad should have never forced something that was going to make you unhappy." She told me still holding my face in her tiny hands.
"Well, here is how it happend. I met Natalie at a show we did, she was in the front row of one of our concerts, yes a fan...I was leaning over the audiance and shaking hands, and I took hers, there was something about her that intreged me, so when no one was looking I leaned down and whispered for her to meet me back stage after the show." I told her taking a breath remembering all that happend.
"Go on Taylor, I am here and I am not going to disrespect you for what happend in your past." She told me, making my heart feel warm.
"Well, security brought her to my dressing room after the show, I was at a loss for words at first, I looked over at her and she stood there..not screaming cause she was standing in front of me like most fans did, that took my breath away, I walked over to her and took her hand in mine and walked her over to the sofa I had there,, and we started to talk. I asked her if she would like to go out to dinner with me and then maybe hang out after that, she said yes, so I showered and then we left....we had dinner and talked, she had this thing about her that just made me feel comfortable." I said to her, knowing i was dragging this out, not knowing how she would react to me.
"It is really ok Taylor, I want to know everything about you, I really do." She told me, tighting her grip on my hand.
"Well, I had a couple beers, it was easy for me to get alcahol back then, I was famous so people would give me anything I wanted..and she had a couple too, well we decided to go back to my hotel room, I really felt the urge to lose my virginity to this girl...she just made me feel good about things, so we headed to the hotel, I couldnt keep my hands off her, when we got to the room I realized that I had no condoms, I had never needed them before,she reasured me she was on the pill...and I believed her." I said frowning. Well we made love that whole night, both of us losing our vigintity that night, she was amazing to me." I told her.
"What happend next Taylor, am I getting to nosy for you?" She asked me.
"Not at all, I just didn't want you to feel like I used her." I told her.
"I would never feel that way Taylor, I just want to know everything about you." She said smiling.
"Well basically we didn't see each other again for 4 mths, she lived in Georgia and Me in Tulsa so I didn't really get a chance to get out there again. Until one day I was backstage at a show we were doing in Florida, my cell phone rang, I answered it and it was Natalie, I could tell just by the way she said my name that something was wrong and I started to shake, trying to keep it together cause my parents were sitting across the room from me watching. I asked her what was wrong and she started to cry, I then knew in my heart that it was bad.
She told me that she went to the dr's and they told her she was pregnant, I almost fell over I could feel myself wanting to run and hide, but yet my parents now knew something was wrong, I told her we would figure something out and then hung up the phone...wondering why she lied to me and telling me she was on the pill...she lied." I said having all I could do not to cry.
"Oh god Taylor, I am so sorry." She said to me gripping my hand tighter.
"Well I ended up telling my parents, the shame that came across their face at me, I was humiliated. They told me I should have known better then to believe someone when they tell you that they are on birth control, well I was young I didn't know. Well my dad told me I had to marry her, and so that is what I did, 19 and getting married...well 4 mths later Ezra was born, and I felt so much love for him but yet, there was no love there for Natalie. We stayed married for 2 years, til I realized that I was unhappy and I was making her unhappy too, so I asked her for a divorce. I will do everything I can to protect Ezra from hurt and pain, but not sure I am going to be able to protect him from all that is going to be involved with a custody hearing." I told her, looking into her eyes, knowing she could feel my pain.
Soon our meal came and we ate and laughed, she was filling my heart fast....I just have never felt this before.
We decided to go to the beach and just relax and enjoy the evening, knowing that Ezra was well taken care of for the night I was really relaxed.
I felt myself lean forward and start kissing her, worried at first that she would get upset, but she responed to me and pulled me closer to her, I felt the burning in my body and I could feel the heat off her body burning me, the passion I was feeling was just over taking me to new places I have never been before. I just wanted to take her and climb inside her and never come out!! I slowly pulled away from her and looked up at her and kissed the tip of her nose.
"Why did you stop Taylor, did I do something wrong?" She asked frowning.
"Oh god no baby, I just don't want to do things that you don't want me too, or rush into things." I told her looking into her green eyes.
"Oh Taylor, I want this just as much as you do, I don't want you to stop anything." She said whispering into my ear.
That is all I needed to hear, I pulled her onto my lap and started to kiss her with all I had, I slowly moved my hand up her dress letting my fingers explore her as they hit her bare pussy, making me gasp realizing she had no underwear on. "Oh god baby, you are killing me here." I moaned in her mouth.
"That was what I was hoping for...for you to enjoy feeling me for the first time." She said kissing me harder.
I started to pump my finger into her as she moaned my name...I took my finger out of her and lifted her face to look into my eyes, and I took the finger and sucked all her juices off...
"Do you like when I do that baby? do you want to feel my mouth on you?" I whisperd to her into her ear.
"Oh god yes Taylor, I want to feel all of you." She said trying to catch her breath.
I laid her down on the blanket and lifted her dress off exposing all of her body to me now, I took a deep breath in moved my eyes up and down her body. "Oh god baby you are the most beautful thing I have ever seen in my life." I told her as I felt my cock rise to the occasion.
"Show me how beautiful I am Taylor." She said rubbing her breasts in front of me..this girl was driving me wild.
I laid down next to her, and kissed her neck, licking ever inch of it, then I licked down her chest, licking circles around her nipples, stopping to suck each one...loving the taste of her.
I then licked down her belly and circled her belly button with my tongue..."Do you like this baby? Do you want me to keep moving down?" I asked her breathing harder.
"Oh god yes Taylor pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee don't stop whaat you are doing, I have never felt anything like this in my life..." She said shivering.
I thought for a sec...Oh my god could she be?..."Baby, Have you ever been with a man before?" I asked her.
"Don't be mad at me Taylor, but nooo, your my first." She said as her cheeks turned bright red.
"Oh my god, Why would I be mad? That makes you even more beautiful to me." I said to her cupping her face and kissing her.