Chapter 51- Goodbye Again!
~Taylor~
Well today is the day that the girls head back to Tulsa, Always the hardest part of the music business and being married, but we always find the answers and make it work!
My hard one is Ezra, he proved to me when they got here that he is at the age he is realizing I am gone from his life, I sometimes wish I could bottle up time and just keep it locked away to give to him so that he knows I love him dearly! I don't want him growing up not understanding where I am all the time!
"I really feel bad for not being there all the time for Ezra,this gets harder and harder." I said to Trish, pulling her into my chest.
"I know Taylor, but you know I let him know all the time that you love him and that you are coming home to him, he will be ok with this, it is just something that takes adjusting sweetie." She said to me hugging me tighter to her.
I looked across the room to Ezra who was sitting on the sofa watching his Sesame Street, he was actually singing along with them singing the alphabet, all the sudden a tears stung my eyes, my son was singing his ABC's yet another thing I was missing out on, he looked up at me and smiled, came running over to me, and I bent down and picked up and held him so close to me that I thought I was going to pull him right into my body!
"I love you so much Ez, daddy needs you to know that I will be home soon, but I will fly you and Trish back out here to see me soon ok? Will you take care of Trish for daddy?" I asked him kissing his soft little cheek.
"I love you daddy, Miss you too." He said to me kissing my cheek as he held my face in his little pudgy hands.
"Daddy misses you too my little man, this is hard for daddy, but I love you always Ezra." I told him.I felt a tear fall down my cheek, Ezra wipped it away as he startd to cry pulling my face closer to him.
"Don't cry daddy, I love you." He said, god how he just touches every single part of my life, I would be nothing without him and Trish.
I looked up and saw Trish standing there smiling at me with tears in her eyes, her chin quivering, Ezra and I held are arms out for her to join us in a group family hug, we stood there what seemed for hours just holding each other , Ezra spreading kisses all over our faces!
There was so much love in this room right now that I thought my heart would burst into a million peices! My little family...which someday soon I would like to expand with Trish, have one of our own, but she was so good with Ezra, treating him like he is her own, but I would like to have a little girl or boy with her.
She looked up at me and looked into my eyes. "What are you thinking about baby?" She asked me, tears still streaming down her cheeks, I kissed them away, my forehead pressed against hers. "I love you with all my heart Trish, thank you so much for being my wife, and my son's mother." I said to her.
"Taylor, I should be the one thanking you for loving me the way you do, and Ezra, he is just the most precious gift I could ask for besides you." She said to me leaning up to kiss me.
"I want us to have a child of our own to Trish, I hope it is something that we can plan on doing soon, I would like for us to share a child togher baby." I told her brushing my thumb across her lips.
"I would love that Taylor, I want to have your child sweetheart, and to give Ezra a playmate." She said smiling.
We both looked over to watch Ezra clapping his hands to sesame street, both of us giggling at the site, he was just into that show.
~Zac~
I let Kiley sleep in for awhile, I got up and took a shower before the kids woke up, I heard Brianna in the front room giggling, I went out to see what she was doing, the child never stops amazing me, she was sitting on the couch naked as a jaybird watching Sesame Street.
I snuck up behind her on the couch, knelt down so that she couldn't see me, and reached my hands over and grabbed her and pulled her over the couch and into my arms. She let out on whooper of a scream that about deafend me. "Zac, stop picking on her, I know you love to hear her scream but I am sure that everyone else in the hotel don't you dork." Kiley yelled out from the bedroom, cracking me up.
"What are you doing sitting here with no clothes on young lady? And who taught you to turn the TV on to this channel?" I said grinning at her, her big brown eyes looking back up at me all innocent looking.
"Wuv you daddy." She said and threw her arms around my neck and kissed my checks, she makes me smile so much, going to miss her again when they leave today, but I know they will be back soon.
"I love you too my little princess...but we need to get some clothes on that naked little butt of yours before one of your uncles comes flying in here." I Told her laughing.
I got her dressed and braided her hair, and then took her to the kitchen and got her a bowl of cereal, her fave and mine gotta have the Peanut Butter Captain Crunch, I started to poor a bowl for her and she clapped her hands as to tell me that she liked my choice of cereal.
"You like that huh precious?" I said as I placed her bowl in front of her and sat down with a bowl for myself. "Tank you daddy." She said to me, taking my breath away, each day she is learning more and more words.
"Your welcome baby." I said to her brushing my fingers across her little cheeks, amazed that this little girl is really mine, she is so precious and beautiful, making me sit and think about how much I love Kiley and remember the love we shared creating our children.
I watched her eat..even though I think the floor got more then her little mouth did, it just made me giggle that she was trying so hard to get that spoon and cereal into her mouth, she finally poured the cereal from the spoon into her hand and ate it that way, I raised my eye brows at her, I tried so hard not to laugh but I just couldn't hold it back and decided to eat the same was she was, she giggled.."Daddy silly, wuv you." She said to me as we both laughed, I looked up in the doorway to see Kiley standing there, looking at me like I had lost it, she finally broke down and laughed. "Zac Hanson, You just totally amaze me, I am glad you guys eat so well." She said running her hands through my hair.
"Good morning baby, sorry about that, figured I would join my daughter in her eating rituals." I told her swating her ass, making her jump and turn around fast and landing in my lap. "Well fancey meeting you here my lady." I said to her, pulling her face to mine and kissing her beautiful lips. "I love you so much baby." I told her, hearing Brianna giggling at us.
"I love you too Zac, today is not a day I look forward too at all, I am going to miss you so much baby." She said to me, looking into my eyes.
"I am going to miss you too baby, but when you want to come back out you let me know ok? I will fly you back out in a heartbeat." I told her, running my hand over her face. "You know baby, If I was a blind man, I would still feel your beauty just by touch." I told her, as I felt her soft face.
"Oh god Zac, Thank you baby, you always seem to know what to say to me, and that was the most beautiful thing I have ever heard." She said to me, tears filling her eyes.
"I only say the things that are in my heart baby, and god you fill my heart so much, you and the kids, I never thought in million years I could be this happy in my life baby!" I told her, kissing her cheeks.
"I feel the same way Zac, you and the kids make me so happy and you guys fill my life completly, I would never change any of it, even you being on the road Zac, you are so comeplete." She told me making tears fill my eyes.
We hugged each other and Brianna ran over between the 2 of us, and grabbed our legs, I scooped her up into my arms laying butterfly kisses all over her tiny face, she started laughing so hard her face turned beet red,she tried talk but couldn't get anything out of her tiny mouth, finally she grabbed my hair and yanked it, she knew how to get me to stop really fast. "Ow you little turd, that is it daddy is gonna get you now." Said, tickling her little feet, finally I stopped cause she told me she had to go potty, kinda thought I was not up to wearing that today, I put her down and she ran to the bathroom, I set her on her potty chair and went out to get Matthew up,but Kiley beat me to it, she was dressing him, he was giving smiles to her, she kissed the top of his little blonde head, he actually got my blonde hair, and Kileys green eyes, he actually looks like the both of us and Brianna looks like me, just as I turned around I heard her yell to me out of the bathroom, at the same time a knock came on the
door I ran swung the door open and in walked Isaac as I ran into the bathroom, I yelled from there.."Sorry man, Brianna just got done using the potty." I laughed, I got her pants up and she ran out and into Ike's arms, "Uncccccclllleeee Ikeeeee." She yelled, he bent down and scooped her up. "Hey baby girl, how is uncles fave neice today?" He asked her kissing her cheek. "Wuv you uncle Ike."She told him and took his face in her tiny hands and kissed his cheeck, making us smile. "Uncle loves you too angel." He said to her and then put her down and walked into the kitchen with me.
"How are you holding up bro?" I asked him, knowing he was having a hard time with Jade and the boys heading back, I know it is hard, but we are going to bring them back out soon.
I am actually doing ok, I am flying Jade and the boys back out in a couple weeks, that is what I wanted to ask, if you wanted me too book Kiley and the kids too, I am booking Trish and Ezra too." He said to me, making me smile.
"Yes, please do." I said making my heart flutter faster, knowing I will see my wife and kids in 2 weeks. We got everyone loaded up, including Lucy and took them all to the airport, we kissed our families goodbye and put them on the plane, each of us knowing in 2 weeks we would be together again.