Comments | tazmanianpunker: I'm gonna die

tazmanianpunker

I'm gonna die

Apr 23, 2005 15:46

ok. I'm at my all time low. No one cares about me. . . not even doctors. They refuse to refill my prescriptions. I'm gonna die. No, it's not a terminal illness but I have hypothyroidism (thyroid doesn't work so I have no metabolism what-so-ever). The doctors really don't care. Is there a reason for me to live now? No. I can't do anything so I'm ( Read more... )

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jtcarrey April 24 2005, 08:15:52 UTC

:( get a new doctor

Sad. anonymous April 25 2005, 03:14:14 UTC

Wow.. I just have to say that was the most selfish thing I ever read. You have so many other options available yet it seems you plan to choose the most cowardly way out. You hate everyone, apparently even those you openly admit love you. You care so little for them that they only rate a minor mention in your self written obituary. You gloss thru a paragraph of text in a overhyped, melodramatic "poor me" haze and expect what exactly? Us to worry for you? How very sad that you get your jollies in this way. If you really meant a single word of it you'd not have even bothered with the blog mention of it. Obviously you are a sad, small person with nearly nothing to do with yourself aside from attempt to worry people around you. You ought to be ashamed.

Re: Sad. anonymous April 25 2005, 17:28:58 UTC

Who are you?

occasusvenustas April 26 2005, 04:26:01 UTC

I'm sorry to hear this about you. I don't really know you, though we've shared some posts at dmitchell1985's yahoo group, Celebrity Obsession. I hope you haven't done anything as intense as suicide. I can sympathise from the view of family/friend. My sister recently attempted suicide, was found in time and she lived. She's glad she did now, no matter how hard things were for her. I love her and I know there are people who love you as well. Hell, I don't know you, but if you get this feel free to contact me at any time. You don't have to be alone. *hopes this finds you*

Cheers,
~Occasus

occasusvenustas April 26 2005, 04:44:07 UTC

Peggy, it's me, Candace. I hope you will ignore the jerk who said you were being selfish. Maybe it is a little selfish, but that's no way to talk to someone who's hurting. I know I have often felt the same way as you, and writing in your blog, you hope someone will stumble along and care. Well, I care! I'm sorry I've been so stressed about school lately that I haven't talked. I hope you are doing okay. Don't give up. I will be praying for you. Life will get better for both of us if we just learn to trust in God and see that He really has a better plan for our lives. We just need to remember to always be in prayer and reading our Bibles...it's when we don't that (obviously) Satan is able to attack us and get us down. Don't let that happen. Remember that Jeremiah 29:11 says that "I KNOW the plans I have for you, a plan to prosper you and not to harm you, to give you a future." You know, if you think about it, it's almost like Satan KNOWS God has big plans for you, and that's why he wants to kill you off ( ... )

tazmanianpunker April 26 2005, 07:39:22 UTC

thanks to both of you! I really appreciate this. I'm doing all right but still a little depressed. Thanks.

tazmanianpunker April 26 2005, 07:44:05 UTC

hey, I don't plan to do the suicide thing. It's not on my todo list but I do feel like dying a lot. I just get depressed. thanks for the message. later. I didn't mean to sound so selfish but I really thought I was going to end my life, and sometimes I do feel like ending my life. I don't just say things like that to get attention.

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Hope anonymous April 26 2005, 19:32:45 UTC

At one time or another we all feel hopeless about things in our lives, or even our own life itself. In those times of hopelessness this verse is what my mother prays.

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. Romans 15:13

I am not an extremely spiritual person like my mother, but I like this verse.

A life with out any kind of hope is destined to lead you into depression and empty feelings. Often times I have walked a path of hopelessness. But then I stop and look at what surrounds me and I choose not to be consumed by what I cannot control, but rather what gifts have been given to me from my friends and family. Finding hope finds reason. I sincerely wish for you to find a source of hope in your life.

Hang in there, things always get better. There maybe more reasons as to why your doctor ceased your medication rather than not caring, and if that isn't the case I advise you to find another doctor.

Re: Hope tazmanianpunker April 27 2005, 00:23:43 UTC

Thanks. I appreciate the verse and I hope to find hope when I'm down like that. I am going to another doctor. They really don't care.

As to the reason I need that medication, is I have hypothyroidism and I have to take a little pill that tastes like candy every day. It's not bad but if I don't take it every day I go into depression and I sleep all day. I have no energy if I don't take it. So, since the doctor ceased the medication, they got scolded in a business like manner and were told that I am leaving them for another Endocrinologist.

Peggy

Re: Hope tazmanianpunker April 27 2005, 00:26:13 UTC

oh and I forgot, why won't you tell me who you are? I'm so curious in knowing who you are.