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hey! i found out what it is like to live in a plutonic relationship. trust me, it's total misery. I can only act out my feelings for him ( Read more... )

I don't want to live this life anymore. I want all my friends to just go away right now. I'm trying to keep myself alive but there's no hope. I want my independence but it's not going to be there. The only way for me to get my independence is to just go ahead and kill myself. I can't stand anything anymore. I don't want anything or anyone ( Read more... )

It's been awhile since I've written. It's been the lack of motivation, lack of interest on my part of getting up each day and writing in this thing. So let's see how much trouble I can get in in the next couple of weeks or months ( Read more... )

okay so my dad made it through Surgery on Monday. It was hard for me because I had to wait from 2 until 9 in the hospital. It sucked! I met some of Dad's friends though which killed a couple of hours but still, it was hard sitting in the same place for seven hours! Damn! So yeah I got home and I pretty much cried myself to sleep because of my ( Read more... )

Look, for those of you who read my journal and who like to harrass my friends on here, quit. You're getting yourselves into trouble and I could get into deeper shit than I already am in. In the past month I've been kicked out of religious organizations because of this journal. Because of my true feelings, my anger, temper, and shit that I let out ( Read more... )

In the past fucking month I've had nothing but bad fucking luck. My friends dont want to talk to me, be around me, or anything. I'm hated. I hate myself and everyone. I can't live with anything right now. I'm so close to pulling the fucking trigger. I don't want to live anymore ( Read more... )

I should have thought three times before I made that last mistake. I've lost all my friends and I'm lonely. I really didn't think that people would find out my deepest secrets and then open their big mouth to the campus minister. They suck! I'll never be able to trust anyone again. I swear. And they blabbed to the campus minister from what I said ( Read more... )

I saw this movie today called The Benchwarmers. I could totally relate. I feel bullied by religious people. They let me in and let me think I'm all cool and all that and then I figure out it's all an act. They just include each other and leave you out of everything. It sucks. Everything sucks. I'm going to hell. I know I am. I feel like I am. I may ( Read more... )

So I'm on my own. I don't know what to do. I'm bored. I spilled my feelings and reasons out to AASU's campus minister on why I'm not coming back. I felt left out, I felt un-included because I was being un-included. It got out of hand and hate came into play. I also felt burned and burned out. I felt like people didn't like me. Well, that's what ( Read more... )