So yeah, I went on the date with the guy I was talking about in the previous entry. ::Sigh:: He's too big for me. . . and he smokes. I don't want to go out with someone who smokes and leaves me scratching my head. He seems interested in me. I don't want that ( Read more... )

hey, so in the past few months i've been backstabbed and picked on. even the ole campus minister is picking on me. He rubbed the fact that I'm not going to New Orleans on a relief effort for Hurricane Katrina in my face. I was like "ok. ONE, FUCK YOU! and Two, shut up. It's not that big of a trip. You're going out of state to work during Spring ( Read more... )

ok, so . . . sorry for being so negative. I removed the suicidal posts and I'm sorry for scaring people. It still doesn't change my feelings though. I still feel suicidal ( Read more... )

ok, my mom's going to Pittsburgh, PA without me. that hurts. and it really sucks. I'd like companionship right now and I'm not getting it. . . I need a change of scenery to get me back on track. I hate my life ( Read more... )

ok, I can't handle the holidays now. There are so many days where I'm just lying in bed crying my eyes out and asking God to go ahead and kill my dad NOW! all he does is complain complain complain. Then he threatens me that there's not going to be any presents for me under the tree Christmas morning. Sorry, folks . . . oh . . . and DAD, but ( Read more... )

Life really sucks. I'm going over to the dark side. I want to call my friends but then again I don't want to. I really feel like I'm losing people. I have no more control over anything. Something's telling me to give up and just kill myself. I'm probably the most suicidal person anyone's ever known. I hate myself. I don't want to live anymore. I ( Read more... )

Your life is just like the movie Finding Nemo!

What movie most represents your life
brought to you by QuizillaI haven't been up to anything really. I'm just trying hard to follow Christ. I went to Jekyll Island and met a guy I really like. . . Mike Nichols. He's cute and he's a christian. He is just awesome! anyways, I'm just having a lot of fun ( Read more... )

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I have so much to write on this but I don't know what to write! suffering from a little bit of writer's block over here, but I'm also so overwhelmed from what all has been going on in my life lately ( Read more... )

One thing I forgot to mention. . . When I got back from Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, my brother came to pick me up. I waited outside the airport for about twenty minutes. anyways, we were driving and he missed the turn to take the shorter path back to the house. Well, instead he drove forty minutes out of his way and we arrived at home pretty late. It ( Read more... )