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[tbs1487]

wow... thats all that i can say. i dont know what to do right now, im so afraid that the life that i have been getting used to will morph into the days of the past. i cant handle this. if it happens to my family again, i wont be able to stay with them. i will have to go somewhere. if i go with them, i will just end up seriously depressed once more

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i miss u

[tuesdaystarfish]

hey i know we havent been talking much, i donno wut happened. nothing was said, we just didnt communicate. my lack of cpu cept the occasional gpa's had a lil bit to do with it. dont take it personal, ive become rather antisocial the last 2 weex. just staying at home, not feeling like calling anyone. uve been away with swim meets n stuff too. i donno, i felt like u never had time to hang out anymore cuz yer so busy with andy and swimming. i thought that u were getting like some other friends i have/had. once things start getting rele serious with the bf, they like ditch all their other friends. i know u guys are in love and whatever, thats kool cuz im glad u found someone that makes u happy. i just dont wanna see u get into something u think u cant get out of. but i know he wouldnt make u do something u didnt wanna do, or that u would go along with it cuz yer stubborn in your own ways like me. i thought that maby u were mad at me, and i wanna be there for u, specially now with whats going on in yer family. i told andy on sat to give u

Re: i miss u

[tbs1487]

yeah... ive noticed this too. idk. i wasnt doing the whole "now that i have andy, i dont need anybody else" thing. ive been really busy, & i really dont get to see him except for the weekends, which is why i havent really had that much time to hang out. idk. i kind of felt like you were changing, & i didnt really know how to react. lately, youve been really depressed, & it seems like everytime i go to talk to you... something is wrong. that gets to me, & its hard on me... i was at a point where i really didnt know what i could say/do anymore. i dont want you to be like that; i want you to be happy, i just dont know how i can help right now. cause, i tried to help before, & basically you just shoved my suggestions right back at me. that hurt. basically, i kind of got the feeling that weve been drifting. its weird, cause our conversations have been akward, & like... idk. i get the feeling that maybe its b/c weve both changed. i wasnt sure if you were mad at me, or felt like we dont relate as much since im not depressed anymore. i dont