I always dread being put in situations where I am required by circumstance or happenstance to call my parents. I doubt they’ll ever understand how much it hurts to have them use my insecurities about wrestling as a career to discourage me. I always assumed, blindly so, that I could share my emotions with them in confidence. They only use them ( Read more... )

I truly hope that one day I can drop the parenthesis containing "of Tough Enough I" from the end of my name. It seems like a hyphenated relic from an old marriage, while it may have been enjoyable during it's ephemeral duration and opens many doors, I'd like to be known for who I am and not what I was.

Last night I watched Smackdown for the first time in what must be months. The WWE (I’ll never get used to that), being the ever evolving beast it is, has lost almost all resemblance to what it was when I saw it last. There were many faces last night that I didn’t recognize, and a few story lines that I had a very difficult time fully comprehending ( Read more... )

I started this journal out of a need to record my thoughts, and share them with a (seemingly) friendly community. Maybe even to establish some connections within the industry, as although I’ve almost always been treated well in the business, I’ve always felt very much like a stranger in it. I will accept much of the blame for this, as admittedly I ( Read more... )