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[teachme2sing]

[Marked Private // Hackable with some patience]Still no word nor sign from Father. I fear the worst, although I hope against all hope that my fears will not be confirmed. It is like him, after all, to disappear on occasion, and he may only be hiding from the world, even from me. I wish he would not; I hate to think of himself, all alone, with

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[notabighead]

You promised Gaz WHAT!!?! Johanna, I don't want you to get mixed up in that. Zim is dangerous you're going to be mad for insinuating that you can't take care of yourself, I know it., he was able to kill Gaz! I don't know what I'd do if you got hurt...I love you.

Sorry for hacking this, but I hack almost all of your entries...

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[teachme2sing]

Dib, I don't want you getting hurt, either. You know what seeking revenge did to Father. Do you want that to happen to you?

Yes, I promised Gaz. I promised her because I love you, Dib, and if anything were to happen to you, I... Please. Dib, please listen to me.

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People mark things as private for a reason, Dib.

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[notabighead]

Well, I don't think I'm going to kill anyone besides Zim...

I....I know.

I know, but that I never reall paid attention to things like that, probably has something to do with my messed-up childhood.

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Something's wrong.

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[teachme2sing]

Father didn't think he would kill anyone but Turpin, Dib, but that thirst for revenge drove him mad. Do you know what it's like, to look at your own father and see the man he could have been, to see how things might have been if some stupid man hadn't destroyed his life for some stupid reason, to see the shadows of Benjamin Barker in every move he makes, in every expression?

He will never laugh, or smile, or be happy simply for the sake of being happy, Dib. He hated Turpin, and rightly so, but he let that hatred eat him up from the inside, and... and I don't even know if he's still here, and I lay awake at night, wondering, and I can't bring myself to look for him because if I do, and if he's gone... Dib, if he's gone, he's dead, back in our world.

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I'm not much pleased to learn of your intrusions.