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[tearfilledsighs]

i just wrote a long ass entry and it deleted.

fuck this

and fuck you.

i hate feeling thick and not pretty enough
and i hate fucking hoes.

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[xcryin_insidex]

I was telling TJ today in the car about how i think you're fucking beautiful and i wish i could put you in a box and put you on my shelf cause you look like a little doll :-)
Don't be down on yourself hun<3

[tearfilledsighs]

<3 that made me feel good : )

but i'll say the same thing to you as i said to jim... at gibralter, getting hit on only by old mexicans, big black men and wierdos who resemble rapists can make you feel pretty ugly. they follow me around on break, and make gross comments to me and about me while im in tolls, and seriously its enough to make someone wana curl up and cry.

yesterday was just a really bad day at work, and i got more comments then usual, and at the end of the day 3 huge black men came up to me and asked me for my number and then proceeded to tell me what they would do to me if they could get me home.

and now that you know my life story i'll stop now haha...

and just for the record, your fucking beautiful and have the prettyest hair ever <3

[shatterd_dreams]

Who are you so angry at hun?

[metaljmz]

yeah, whats wrong? you never name names.
just read all stuff people post on your LJ about how much people dig you.

angst is trendy! be happy. its much more fun.

[metaljmz]

just for the record. you aren't "thick"... but even if you were, alot of guys are "down with the thickness".

a little bit of thickness can be fucking adorable.
believe me. and not just black guys that dig that.

and if you want me to give you the brutal honast perverted truth... girls with some meat on there bones are much hotter and 9.9 times out of 10 are much better in bed than the stick skinny girls.

[tearfilledsighs]

well you saying that is all fine and dandy. but working at gibralter and ONLY getting hit on by 50 year old big black men or mexicans doesnt prove so.

i actually think working there has brought down my confidence a lot.. being treated like a piece of meat by wierdos isnt my favorite pass time.

they follow me around on break, and make obsene comments to me and about me to their friends when they come threw my line in the toll booth.

[metaljmz]

then quit!

you should come work at the country club i work at. you'll still get hit on, only it'll be by 40 year old guys that have "more money than god" (man i hate that phrase, god doesn't have any money, hes fucking god! whats he need money for), and the pay is much nicer.

[tearfilledsighs]

i bet it is...
and i wouldnt be working 12 hours every day on the weekends..

wheres this place at?