Ok life is like good now... but not good. I know that sounds a bit confusing. I use to never want to go to school, I use to always want to stay home. But now things have changed, I always want to go to school, and I never want to stay home. It's like my sanctuaries have changed. Cause when I'm at home my grandma tells me how much she hates me, how ( Read more... )

I have come to the conclution that I have major issues. I nicknamed a 6'10 man who's wrestling name is The Undertaker... SQUISHY, then Scuffy, then Scuffy scuff scuff, the scuff scuff, then scuff, and now I call him Papa Bear. Honestly... and thats not even half of the real nicknames...is there something wrong with me? lmao...

I belive there is

Omg I just watched the ending of Survior Series (still sad I couldnt go) And OMG Undertaker looks sooo cute. He's like got that scuffy dark colored gotee and Longer hair. And omg he was wearing SPANDEX AGAIN! But like he looks like that cute scuffy teddy bear again. I like wanted to hug the t.v lmao. I know I can be such a mark at times. If you ( Read more... )

Undertaker's here tonight. The big Survior Series PPV is here tomarrow. I had totally forgot that my aunt couldnt get tickets till I went to the mall and saw a huge poster with him on it. I like cried at the mall and people we're staring at me weird as I cried before a siloette of the Undertaker. I felt like a big baby but it's been like 2-3 years ( Read more... )

My family needs to start understanding they are really fucking me up with how mean they are... I already have emotional problems and they are just adding to it. I am starting to crumble under all this pressure again. But luckily I have Lauren and David, they have been helping me a lot. Lauren knows I use to cut... but David doesnt, and I'm not ( Read more... )

Going to go see Bon Jovi tonight. I'm excited. lol. Oh and I cut my hair today. My grandma was complaining that she wanted my hair cut (like always) so I just got really pissed off and chopped a bunch of it off. I thought it was gonna so noticable about how bad it looked but Lauren said it looks fine so YAY I WIN!!! talk about a rebel move.

I cant believe eddie is...gone. I thought Lauren was kidding when she called me. I didn't believe her, then she let me hear the press conference and it came to me all too real. I mean Eddie was like a uncle even to me. My whole family is telling me he's just some wrestler, they tried to blame his past drug problems on it and it made me so upset. I ( Read more... )

Who's happyily in love!!! lmao. *OHHH PICK ME PICK ME!!!* David, is like the coolest guy ever, He's so nice and stuff lmao. Yeah I'm like overly happy. And today was my b-day. I'm sadly only 15 though. *sigh* I wanna be older. But hey I'll take my youth happily. But Omg I'm like happy! No depression or anything. David is like my happniess lmao. God ( Read more... )

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