So many opportunities. I want it all and I want nothing at the same time. Nothing is too much and everything is not enough. I've never been in such an uncomfortable position in my life before. I feel as though every decision I make is quite possibly the wrong decision. Everyday I wake up, I see seconds go by and I panic. I can feel my heart racing ( Read more... )

So last night the world didn't end ( Read more... )

So my last week has been pretty adventurous. We just arrived back from Paris via the Chunnel last night. I must admit Paris is quite fabulous in August when there are NO PARISIANS haha. That's when they all go on vacation ( Read more... )

“Love as a state of being…it means that you are simply loving, you are not creating a relationship out of it. Your love is just like the fragrance of a flower. It does not create a relationship, it does not ask you to be a certain way, to behave a certain way, to act a certain way. It demands nothing. It simply shares. And in sharing also there is ( Read more... )

So late last night I had the most fucked up dream. I dreamt that I was getting married to a complete stranger. I knew everyone in the wedding of course, they were my family, and they were thrilled to death as if it were some miraculous event. Like the ‘virgin birth’ and other such myths. At the last rehearsal, I grabbed my keys and drove off. I ran ( Read more... )

We fought your wars with all our hearts ( Read more... )

My heart is aching and I don't want to pay any attention to it. I think I sometimes pretend to be a lot more stoic than I really am. Not to let my emotions show or my guard down because it leaves me vulnerable. You need a little vulnerability to be loved though. To know that someone wants me, at times, is just too much for me to handle. This is ( Read more... )

"You need some sort of structure, just because college is over doesn't mean that you don't have to have any structure ( Read more... )

+ Monday: Missed a day of work to properly say goodbye to a friend who left for a one month vacation ( Read more... )