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oh brain. i hate you. haha.

finally...a night that feels like i'm used to. a normal conversation. no paranoia or worry. she seemed interested and responded to things normally. even though i havent seen her in a while...i still feel good. fuck, especially after the shitty day at work i had.

so today is the first day in about three months of us talking/dating where we havent at least talked on the phone. text messages dont count for what i'm talking about. i mean actually speaking to each other. and as silly/retarded as it may sound, i'm kinda bummed about it. i know it's stupid. but i cant help it. i really wish i could stop ( Read more... )

i need to stop over thinking and over analyzing. stop thinking things that aren't happening. stop worrying so much. trust. but trust is so hard. hahaha...it's been about a year since chrystina burned my trust! lame. but this is different. she's different. and i need to remember that. i need to be confident in her trust when she's helping ( Read more... )

now...the reno bands played well and it was cool, but really i'd say the only thing i enjoyed about last night was going "out of town" with two friends i really care about. it was nice seeing some people too. but really...my night kinda sucked.

this makes me excited


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i just gave matt kwd/tribunal my address so he can ship some copies of the tribunal sampler...i'm stoked!

i think the more i dont hang out, the more i feel that if i did, i would be even more out of place. it kind of sucks hearing about how people had amazing weekends, but i wasn't part of it. i'm not sure if i really want to be, but i do miss having fun with a bunch of people. i have the bad habit of thinking "well if they aren't going to call me to ( Read more... )

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