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Jun 26, 2004 22:02

I just finished talking with my parents, and am wondering what is the best way to end this pain. So many terrible thoughts are running through my head, and it all seems to easy. One pull of the trigger and it would all be done with, but there's this boy, who I never looked inside of before. He is my angel, and I have given him nothing. This boy, ( Read more... )

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mailorderlove June 26 2004, 21:34:54 UTC

in one point in my life all i seemed to do was disappoint my parents more and more by each day. and every single day i would get the same lecture and be told how i've changed over the years and how they're going to take everything away from me and send me to a private school because i have too many distractions in my life and it's leading me down the drain. after a while crying myself to sleep became a habit because you can't get away from your parents, they're always there. and you can't tell them to be quiet and to stop lecturing because they are always there. and i thought about suicide so many times because there's nothing i hate more than feeling like all i can do is disappoint them. but then you have to think about the people out there who really do love you. it's so easy to just say goodbye, it's so easy to make it all be over with. but just think, in time things will get better. and you will learn from your mistakes and be able to prove to your parents that you're not a disappointment even though they never thought that in the ( ... )

tearstakeover June 27 2004, 11:57:41 UTC

wow, that was so fucking nice alicia. thank you so much for being here. everything you said is what im feeling. i just wish time would go faster instead of the slower pace it seems to have adapted to. i try and sleep alot, and yeah, crying is the only way that seems to happen, but at least it works.

my hands smell like my feet. _iwillbloom June 26 2004, 22:15:56 UTC

Layne,
I'm glad you are coming to realize all this amazing stuff about terry. told you it could be somebody right under your nose and you haven trealized it. I guess it takes times and situations like these to make people realize whats really important. I hope your mom doesnt make you stop hanging out with me. I'm supposed to be her favorite!!. :( I hope you call me sometime soon.
I ♥ you.

Re: my hands smell like my feet. xaimformyheart June 26 2004, 22:50:40 UTC

i agree with everything lora just said
i ♥ you too

Re: my hands smell like my feet. tearstakeover June 27 2004, 11:51:07 UTC

thanks for agreeing with Lora! yall guys are gonna have to pull me through this please.
I love you girls, more than you may know.
it is funny what you see when you're not preoccupied with a car, friends around you, or simple minded things like t.v.

Re: my hands smell like my feet. tearstakeover June 27 2004, 11:49:23 UTC

awe Lora, no wonder I always call you my mom. I couldn't love you more girl. Yeah I'm not sure what's gonna happen with Terry and myself, not anything in the near future, I know that much. I'm grounded for so long. :(** And actually my mom said that you were the only one out of my friends that I could still hang out with.