jackie called me today and said that cubby wants me to live in his room with him ( Read more... )

i am so fucking happy right now.

sometimes the things you think you're living for, turn out to be the things that are killing you.

im sick of letting my guard down, just to put it right back up again.

i had no idea it was even possible to feel this lonely.

my life has become something like rebuilding after an earthquake. the structure you had built around yourself comes crashing down on you. and you are left to search the rubble for some sort of evidence that you had ever been alive. somewhere under those blocks of cement and wooden boards, you will find your life's remains. keeping lists of the ( Read more... )

weekdays are really lonely.

not letting anyone bring me down.

if you're holding on to nothing, then you might as well let go.

so i got a "big girl" job. i work for the liquor control board for the state. ironic, no? im a "supply management technician", which is fancy-talk for "i sit online and buy office supplies all day". i basically make two grand a month to spend the states money on paper and labelmakers. it feels nice to have routine and feel like im actually doing ( Read more... )