SO so SO so ( Read more... )

no more ebay for me. Im spnding all my well eaned money. Wow did i get ripped off on that last purchase or what?

i feel as if all is dying around me and that the whole world around me is dematerailizing and leaving only awfulthings to face

I miss taking pictures. I guess i'll blow up some pictures and put them on my walls to pass the time of not having my super high tech nikon. aslo sleep i have to go to sleep now

I have a friend who is a dr. she told me about another very achieved dr. who assigns his cancer patients like homework instead of medicine. He tells them to fill a whole notebook things they are mad about but for every thing they write that is negative they are to write in another notebook one thing that they are happy about. So in the end they ( Read more... )

so i plan to stay up for three days straight in february. Give me some dos and don'ts of like staying awake?

february is looking really good lately. I am seeing bright eyes twice in one week. Some girls are coming down from NJ, I might be going to PA with mike and ben for a little, I should be getting my own tv and Im having a NO SLEEP CONTEST with ruben. I've never stayed up longer than 48 hours straight. WE both think that 3 straight days is a ( Read more... )

I tried to go to sleep early tongiht. Not only did i PLAN to but i really did. I got all clean in the shower and got in bed at 930pm and i layed there for 3 hours thinking about how i want tired anymore and how i really like to be awake late. So i got up read people jurnals and commented in them ( Read more... )

i stayed up all night. Not one teeny tiny little wink for me little eyes. Life is beautiful again and i am getting lethargic which is a word that sounds like it might mean incredibly fat but it doesn't. Ruben is a true fighter him and me can fight off any want of sleep. It's amazing the way that is. I feel like there is a new level found when ( Read more... )

I miss my brothers. I wonder what chemical poisoned my family. They have been reduced to names on a shopping list. I was too young to remember this i suppose and coincidentally im glad i was. But last week my brother told me that my father took my brother by the head and hurled him across a room. What an ugly thing to do. I imagine that now ( Read more... )