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Hello everyone........I'm so sorry it has been so long since I have commented in my friends journals or updated my own. I am now in my second month of nursing school and I have working my butt off to make sure I am doing all the right things. I think I have done more studying than I have ever done in my whole life. I am loving nursing school though. I go to Pima community college which has one of the best nursing programs in the US. We are doing our rotations at a hospital at the moment and in Post OP. I have learned so much in such a short amount of time. Okay enough about school.
I now have a part time job working at ST. Joe's Hospital about 20 hours a week. It is an easy and boring job where I just sit and watch a patient, but sometimes it can get interesting and if they are sleeping I have some study time. Also it isnt hard so it is not stressful and that is what I need right now.
My daughter's are both doing well. My older one Hope....made the Blue honor role at her school. She is so excited and I am very proud of her. They both are the light of my life and I am so lucky to have them. I took them to the park this evening and we had a blast. I think I will do it again tomorrow night.
I still go to PT because my wrist is still screwed up and I have a feeling it will be for the rest of my life. Oh well just my wrist.
Okay what else has happened. I ran into a guy that I new back in high school and well we have been dating for the past two months. Back in high school we were both very different and well I hung out with his sister. I dont judge anyone and well I guess that is a great thing because he has alot in his past that if I did would really scare me away. He married a girl from high school and that didnt work , but they have a son together and I have met him. He seems like a great kid. Just in the wrong house. Well latley him and I have been having a hard time communicating. I dont really know what it is but one day I will feel like this is cool......and well I can really be happy......and than the next I really feel like I want to be alone. I mean no man in my life right now. I know I said no men period until after nursing school, but well that didn't happen. I dont know. He is sweet most of the time but all he does is talk about work and problems there and well more work. Or sometimes alot of his past. I don't mind listening to him but well for one when we are talking and I say something......alot of the time he take offense to something I have said that is very minor. I have mentioned this and he just closes his eyes. Or if we are in a disscusion and he is not right about something he will just agree with me to stop the discussion.....like he really doesn't give a shit about what I have to say. I don't know....on one note he makes me feel good and on another he really makes me feel like I deserve better.........like I am nothing to him. Oh well hopefully soon I hope my heart finds out what it wants.
On another note........I have read some journals latley but I havn't responded....Im sorry about that. You all have been on my mind and I have started to update many time and am always interrupted. Beleiev it or not I write in here for privacy.....Some of my most private thoughts are included in my journals and well I dont know how to save it if I have been interrupted and want to finish later.
Well I am going to make every attempt to stay up to date or at least better than this(months of not writing). Thank you all for not deleting me. Take care and happy days.
Traci