2013 - 2015
Thanks for sticking by so long. This account is over and done with. I'm done with kpop fanfiction for the foreseeable future, and staying in a toxic fandom like EXO's isn't really doing me any good. I'm going to be honest. Half the people I've met since 2013 in EXO fandom are ridiculously disgusting, pity-seeking, petty as fucking fuck, ready to rip into each other over the smallest of issues, etc. The fanfiction community is going insane. I love the writers I know, and I love their work, and will reread any of them at any given time of the day. But the fandom's drowning in exchanges and fic communities and glory-wanting unprofessional moderators who make everything personal and never see the bigger picture.
But my opinion doesn't count for anything, really. I'm just skywriting. Thank you EXO fandom, for plagiarising my work, and pretending to be friends before talking shit behind my back to my other friends, and believing that you have the privilege to ask for much more than I'm willing to give. You have been the absolute kindest, and I adore you. Terribly so.
Honestly, though, I've made a lot of good friends in this fandom, and I'm glad for you guys the most, of all the things that have happened. You're the best, and I love you so much.
iKON's is no better, when you find yourself disliking a good number of writers in the fandom for the pettiest of reasons. I'll miss Bangtan, but it's getting hard too, when you realise everything wanes at some point in time. Inevitably. I'll still love my bands, of course I will, but I'm not going to follow them by the heels of their shoes anymore. I'll miss talking about OTPs and headcanons, but I can't distract myself anymore.
All my work will still stay up, though. I'm not going to lock anything. My AO3 account will still be accessible, and I won't be orphaning that either. AFF's still up, if you care to read embarrassing fic from 2010. Listography will always be up, as well as Tumblr and ask.fm, though I won't answer anymore questions after this week.
I'm really thankful for all the feedback I've gotten over the past two years being back in fandom after a long hiatus, and I'm glad that so many people have enjoyed my stuff. Thank you for the comments, and the kudos, and the subscriptions, and the recommendations. I'm really very grateful. I know I'll be disappointing a hell of a lot of people doing this. I'll still be finishing all my current fanfiction commitments despite not being an active presence anymore, though.
This departure is really just due to real life problems, and less fandom. I can't do it anymore. Going on, pretending I have some sort of chance to really sort out all my issues just because people encourage me to do so. I'm just facing facts. Nothing can be done, really. I'm done pretending. But I don't mind it anymore.
But hey. It's been a good run. To everyone I've met on LJ, thank you for the weeping and the laughter. I'm glad to have known you. Maybe we'll run across each other in some other fandom or two. Until then. May the rest of you reach your toppermost of the poppermost, wherever that may be.
Ted