Tantric Riddles
Once upon a time, in a far-away place which might have been a dream, a shamanic journey, or simply a conversation in my mind - a goddess asked me a question. It wasn't in words, so much.. It was feelings, images, and the overwhelming desire to explain. To this day, I haven't been able to explain, but I get closer, step by step
What I was shown was a glimpse of what "tantra" truly meant. I put tantra in quotes, because - simply, this is not some Eastern path of mysticism. My path falls within my study of seidr, a path of the North, not the East. I saw what was possible - the state of being in which sexual energy is limitless, infinate, and the exchange of it burns with a pure, clean fire. Having seen it, I craved it, I needed it.. and I've spent years trying to find it.
Ah, but there was a riddle within what she showed me. There are two places of purity:
The first - energy is shared only with those who share the same space - every sexual interaction is driven by a deep, spiritual connection - every action one that is true from the heart, mind and soul, without doubt. It is the place of union of two (or more) masters - exchanging energy, preserving purity, being sure of intent and action in all things, and from that.. arises the infinite energy.
The second - the master shares energy with anyone who would accept it - no partner would be rejected, there is no preference between lover and stranger, between attractive and unattractive. This is the place of the sacred slut - whose body is a temple open to all worshippers, whose purity is in intent, and action - but never in selection of partner.
I explain that so badly.. words struggle to even mark a charcoal sketch of what I saw, and still see when I look.
The riddle.. was simply this. If you can find the first place - how do you move from there to the second place without losing purity. If you can find the second place - how do you move from there to the first place without losing purity.
To me, still, it's unsolvable - a koan of the North. Questioning myself with it improves my understanding, but I don't find the answer. To me, the first space is one of purity.. as is the second, but they are either end of a line.. and all the spaces inbetween are less pure.. Less than infinate.
Yet, although I know it to be impossible, I also know there is a way from one of these spaces to the other.. And eventually, I will understand what that is.
That first place - I know how to find it. I'm not there yet, by a long way, but I can feel the road to get there. Through purity of intent, through teaching partners how to share that space, I can take small steps closer to it. I can teach, guide, and share tantric union. And through that, I can find and share tiny glimpses of the infinite energy I know exists.
The second place was alien to me.. But I've seen it now. When I look with my spiritual eyes.. just for brief moments, I see that in ruine_. There are moments when she can be completely open, give herself totally to someone.. perhaps even just in a kiss, and I can see the temple doors open.. And I know.. She could find that space.
Is this why my goddess brought ruine_ to me? Perhaps. When I see that, when I understand how special, how precious, how wonderful my girl is.. What power she has.. Then I know she is the one I am meant to be with.
Not my answer.. My question. My riddle. My puzzle. My secret. My love. My ruine_.
What I was shown was a glimpse of what "tantra" truly meant. I put tantra in quotes, because - simply, this is not some Eastern path of mysticism. My path falls within my study of seidr, a path of the North, not the East. I saw what was possible - the state of being in which sexual energy is limitless, infinate, and the exchange of it burns with a pure, clean fire. Having seen it, I craved it, I needed it.. and I've spent years trying to find it.
Ah, but there was a riddle within what she showed me. There are two places of purity:
The first - energy is shared only with those who share the same space - every sexual interaction is driven by a deep, spiritual connection - every action one that is true from the heart, mind and soul, without doubt. It is the place of union of two (or more) masters - exchanging energy, preserving purity, being sure of intent and action in all things, and from that.. arises the infinite energy.
The second - the master shares energy with anyone who would accept it - no partner would be rejected, there is no preference between lover and stranger, between attractive and unattractive. This is the place of the sacred slut - whose body is a temple open to all worshippers, whose purity is in intent, and action - but never in selection of partner.
I explain that so badly.. words struggle to even mark a charcoal sketch of what I saw, and still see when I look.
The riddle.. was simply this. If you can find the first place - how do you move from there to the second place without losing purity. If you can find the second place - how do you move from there to the first place without losing purity.
To me, still, it's unsolvable - a koan of the North. Questioning myself with it improves my understanding, but I don't find the answer. To me, the first space is one of purity.. as is the second, but they are either end of a line.. and all the spaces inbetween are less pure.. Less than infinate.
Yet, although I know it to be impossible, I also know there is a way from one of these spaces to the other.. And eventually, I will understand what that is.
That first place - I know how to find it. I'm not there yet, by a long way, but I can feel the road to get there. Through purity of intent, through teaching partners how to share that space, I can take small steps closer to it. I can teach, guide, and share tantric union. And through that, I can find and share tiny glimpses of the infinite energy I know exists.
The second place was alien to me.. But I've seen it now. When I look with my spiritual eyes.. just for brief moments, I see that in ruine_. There are moments when she can be completely open, give herself totally to someone.. perhaps even just in a kiss, and I can see the temple doors open.. And I know.. She could find that space.
Is this why my goddess brought ruine_ to me? Perhaps. When I see that, when I understand how special, how precious, how wonderful my girl is.. What power she has.. Then I know she is the one I am meant to be with.
Not my answer.. My question. My riddle. My puzzle. My secret. My love. My ruine_.