I cant force you to do anything.
I want you here more than anything... you don't want to be.

I begged you earlier.
I thought you would have chose to come...
I am the dumb one for thinking I would get to fall asleep next to you tonight.
Or wake up in your arms.

 She still gives me butterflies and makes me nervous to this day ( Read more... )

We are going to turn our lives around. This I promise.

1. Choke - Chuck Palahniuk ( Read more... )

So I claimed I wouldnt count Choke for my 33 books and counting for this year ( Read more... )

I am not sure why I am choosing 33 books as my total number to go with this year, but why not? I know I cant do 1 book a week to get to 52. And I kind of want a little more than one book every 2 weeks, 33 sounds like a happy medium ( Read more... )

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The sole purpose of this entry is to make Mary and whoever reads this, like Justin, happy because I actually tell you what happens in my little world and not just a little phrase that normally only Laura understands ( Read more... )

3 times today.. that is a record this month.. I havent cried for a while. Once because my legs hurt so much it hurt to walk. Once at diving when I hit my back really hard. And once again when i was talking to someone... I dont know why I cried. I really dont know. I have been super emotional lately. I am all depressed beause Pat is gone and I have ( Read more... )

I didnt mean to. I am always a screw up. I just casually mentioned something.. a name and he freaks out.. i didnt know it would upset him. I didnt know he had a bad day. God what the fuck is my life doing?