random odd assortment of thoughts. in no particular order.

[tellura]

i've been having some odd dreams lately. some of them involve friends, some of them involve celebrities i'd like to fuck. none of them, however, involve friends i'd like to fuck. oh well

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[i_e_d]

*hug*

Hey, look at it this way, research shows the feelings of bleakness and despair peak, then taper off around age 40.. so things will get better!

(the ray of sunshine for a little grey stormcloud)

[tellura]

if i'm lucky, the only thing i want to be worrying about at 40 is crows' feet and grey hair.

[tellura]

i think it's time for me to leave ventura county. this place has too many old memories, too many dusty regretted tableaux. it eats at me. constantly. there are very few places i can look at without feeling some twinge of memories, and often times, those memories make me flinch.

we're thinking norcal, because of the whole university of the pacific thing with their pharmacy school.

UOP

[miscca]

UOP is in Stockton, you'll hate it if you actually live in Stockton - trust me on this :) I hear it's a good school though.

Stockton is about 90 miles from San Jose, where I live. You could live out in Tracy or Livermore which is somewhat closer to civilization and about 30-40 miles from Stockton. Depending on your school schedule ...

We should talk more about this :) Just lemme know how I can help.

[evilbeard]

if you move out there we'll only be an hour or so away and Dan is nearby as well. =)

[miscca]

*hugs* I love you and thank you for posting this, it's good to see what's up with you.

*another hug for good measure*

[tellura]

*hugs back* thanks, sweetie. i appreciate the sentiments.

see above reply to adria_rhiannon about moving up north. perhaps you can help me re: finding good places to live within reasonable driving distance to the school.

[twocents]

I reckon it's good to just get things out sometimes hon. So feel free, it's your journal and you should write what you want when you want and fuck the world's opinion of what you write, it's for you not the world, eh? And just maybe someone will have something to say that is useful, ya never know... ;P If not it's still out and that alone is a good thing. If whoever doesn't like it then they can fuck off. Write as much and as often as you want, I at least like hearing from you

[tellura]

sometimes i just hold things inside until i can't take it anymore and then everything goes ugly. i'm trying to find healthier outlets, and decided to see if lj helps ease the pressure for me.

and even though i'm all for psychiatric drugs used appropriately when necessary, i'm not sure if i'm up for the idea of taking them myself. i might consider the whole therapy thing, if i can find a way to see a counselor for little $$,

being broke fucking sucks.

[tellura]

thank you.