the air was suspiciously sweet while i was walking ( Read more... )

"Apollo (Apollinian or Apollonian): the dream state, principium individuationis (principle of individuation), plastic (visual) arts, beauty, clarity, stint to formed boundaries, individuality, critical reason, celebration of appearance/illusion, human beings as artists (or media of art's manifestation), self-control, perfection, exhaustion of ( Read more... )

is it bad i want to become a maenad

because seriously

dionysus
is
so
fucking
amazing
what the hell


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having devoured (again) whatever information of the greek pantheon of gods i can get my grubby fingers on, i've decided thats what i want to do when i grow up ( Read more... )

oh, but you try,
is it any wonder i'm tired?
is it any wonder that i feel uptight?
is it any wonder i don't know what's right?
oh, these days, after all the misery made,
is it any wonder that i feel afraid?
is it any wonder that i feel betrayed?

i suppose it feels kind of good, letting go.
i was really just waiting for the inevitable

my first real break-up

ive felt crappy all day today and im not sure why ( Read more... )

well its now official, i have the best computer in the world
and a printer/scanner/copier
and another copy of photoshop

yesterday was probably the best day ever

(yes my icon is a psychotic baby assassin mafioso, dont ask, YOU WONT UNDERSTAND)

i know this sounds whiny

but i hate actually getting myself happy and then having it come tumbling down around my ears. i know partially its my fault for letting everything get to me, but i cant help but feel ignored. why waste time if im not there to help? its like my job.

i feel worthless and ignored and distanced. i keep trying to tell myself ( Read more... )

i was happy about filling up my ipod

but now i hurt like fuck
funny how that happens innit