~I just watched 'waking ned devine' with my mom, I love that movie, funny old irish men riding motorcycles naked hahahahaha…. I've been getting along with my mom really well, I guess since spring break. she's got strep throat now, so I hope she feels better, streptococcus sucks major. I also helped her clean her new class hampster's cage. well ( Read more... )

GGGGGGGGGAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! i'm sooooo sick of thinking about my future, and everytime i think i'm doing something good for it, i wind up with the impresion that i'm so far behind, i'll be lucky if i wind up in college at all. last night i got online to find a summer program/camp at a college to go to, only to find out that pretty much ( Read more... )

so i'm in montreal now. i decided that my favorite french words are 'rue' and 'pamplemousse', and if i were to change my name, i would change it to Rue Pamplemousse, which means Grapefruit Street. kind of like that olympic skier, Peekaboo Street. maybe not ( Read more... )

I haven’t been able to win solitare in about four months, I think there’s something wrong with me. and I hate how word processors automatically capitalize the word ‘i’, it just bugs the crap out of me, and you can’t un-capitalize it either, it just keeps correcting you. rrrrrrggggg. english is a pretty stuck up language in that way, nobody else ( Read more... )

i finished my first scarf yesterday, i felt very artsy fartsy for knitting my own scarf.... then i got to school and looked around. i do hate manual sometimes, it can make one feel like such a no-talent underachiever.... or maybe just me. but i still love my scarf. i love this song, too, "... and i'll steal you something pretty, and you'll say man ( Read more... )

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGG i'm seething right now. fumes and red eyes and everything. i don't want to be in school soooooo bad it hurts. and i went running to release agression and all it got me was a hacking cough and a sore throat. and i hate it when stupid salesmen call and refer to me as sweety and sugar and honey. i'm so glad i have such i ( Read more... )

i’m actually happy and i had a good day. this is weird. my dad took me out driving and let me drive on westport, and then later i backed into the garage... righteous! righteous! (in a crush from finding nemo voice) i know it’s not that big of a deal, but it’s a step closer to my independence, and it was fun- i've never driven faster than 20 before ( Read more... )

it's starting to feel a little like christmas (i love getting presents for people that i know they'll love, and i can't complain about getting them myself either), but i'm still more depressed than i thought i'd be. i haven't felt this low since right after rachel left, but then i've been almost too busy to be unhappy before the break. maybe i just ( Read more... )

~so I’m starting to feel my lack of social life. I realized I hardly ever do anything but homework or watch tv and sometimes go to mia’s. I need to start going places and hanging out with people and caring about my life now instead of my goddamn future all the time. I’m a slave to my own high expectations and it’s making me stressed and crazy ( Read more... )

ah… I sit down comfy chair to write words lala come crawling out of my head like maggots on meat in that biology experiment and hippos screaming for joy swinging on straining ropes like in a cartoon they always have the same outfit an then the goose comes running it likes to dance and singing in the rain I wish it would rain again, I wish I could ( Read more... )