Comments | templarwhitey: I stood in the rain, but all I got was wet.

templarwhitey

I stood in the rain, but all I got was wet.

Mar 28, 2006 23:30

That pretty much sums me up right now, I don't feel sick, physically. But emotionally/psychologically I'm feel like I'm slipping down a muddy hill in a thunderstorm. I feel so lost, and unworthy to be found. I hate myself, how can I think about being a missionary when I'm so messed up. I wanted what I read in Rain Psalm but I never found it.

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your answer to 16 reminded me of... onesided_mirror March 29 2006, 13:41:06 UTC

The Hug Poem by Bradley Hathaway

I read about how you touched them and they were healed ( ... )

Re: your answer to 16 reminded me of... templarwhitey March 30 2006, 06:18:30 UTC

It's weird when you read something and say "that's exactly how I feel, but someone else wrote it."

bunny_faerie March 30 2006, 00:11:15 UTC

honestly,

i have empathy for you with hating yourself.
i've delt with that more this year than any other year.

but when i fall into being down on myself and am stuck in that, i don't realize that i'm ruining my opportunities to be a good witness. not that you're a bad witness at all (please don't think that), but i'm just saying that when i focus on how terrible i am, it doesn't let me do any good for anybody.

you shouldn't be so down on yourself. no matter what your reasons are for being unworthy, you're truly a wonderful person. trust me, there aren't a whole lot of guys like you.
soak in God's word, because it will make you feel better.

read leah blatt's comment to me when i was really down on myself a while ago

templarwhitey March 30 2006, 06:30:10 UTC

You're right about it affecting my witness, I'd never really thought about that before. Thanks. Psalm 34:18 really stood out to me in that post.

bunny_faerie March 30 2006, 08:06:20 UTC

but now i'll probably go out and be hypocritical by feeling bad about myself and then letting it affect my witness again....and again.

templarwhitey March 31 2006, 02:29:05 UTC

and I'll do the same thing...

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littlemermaid88 March 30 2006, 01:01:10 UTC

i was gonna give you that encouraging book yesterday, and you weren't at school. i hope i see ya tomorow. seriously, jessica's right. you are a very special guy, and you should not be depressed. it makes me sad to see my friends sad.

templarwhitey March 30 2006, 06:31:39 UTC

You're right, I shouldn't be depressed, and I think that's why it's so hard to fight it...