Sending Off A Little Light

[temujin9]

My daughter Iliana was born into crisis. Her continued good-cheer in the center of that kept many of us relatively sane, in the midst of her mother's decline. She's been a tiny anchor, keeping me from forgetting my place in the world when a part of me wanted nothing more than to cut adrift

Comments

[interactiveleaf]

Are you interested in hearing comments on this? I'm hesitant to speak because I don't know you that well.

[temujin9]

I'm posting it everywhere, so everyone in her life can know what's going on with her. Whether I like it or not, I've tacitly invited commentary; if I end up regretting that, I strongly doubt it will be because of you.

[skattenstar]

Oh Nathan,

I am so so sorry that you're having to go through this. I wish there was something I/ we could do to help you through this time - and if there is anything, Do Not Hesitate To Ask - or just mention it loudly enough someone can hear you. You have made a deeply personal and difficult choice, and I support you. The best thing a parent can do to be a good parent is to take care of themselves and to ensure that their child has the best possible support - even if that's not with them for a time. Things will get easier as Iliana gets older and as you are more and more able to heal. You are stronger than I think most people would've been able to be if faced with a similar situation.

=h=

[made_of_paradox]

I love you.

This is one of the most difficult things you can do as a parent.

I don't know what I can give you, but ask, and if I have it to give, I will.

Dallas is not so far

[netmouse]

When I was almost three, my dad's ex took my half-brothers away from Michigan to Iowa. We almost never saw them after that; we stayed in touch, especially when the boys were sent to the gulf war, but only as adults did we start to rebuild our relationships

[knighthorse]

It seems that you have made the best choice possible, given all circumstances. You can only play the cards you have in your hand. And just by virtue of how hard you are taking this decision shows how much you care about your family. As one who has often beaten myself up over hard decisions, I invite you to not take it out on yourself. I know that it is easier said than done, but It is a bad road that I know all too well. Take care and know that you have many people in your life who support you.