It has been ages. I think I have this as a subject for most of my posts.

[ten_oh_one_]

My life has become completely different. I am somewhat scared of what the future may hold, but I will not back down. Cannot back down. I will do what I want, when I want, and how I want. I have met a wonderful boy, and said goodbye to my old other half. Leaving Tom was the hardest (but best) decision I have ever made. After being choked and thrown

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[quixotic_nights]

I am glad things are going so well in your life right now & happy to hear about it. I saw pictures of the boy. He is quite attractive. Do update more.

As for the alcoholic boyfriend thing, I feel like maybe that was directed towards me. Brian has never drank that much... in fact he only drinks beer at this point. He has also never touched me. He knows and I know that if he touched me in a harmful way even once I'd be gone before he would even get a chance to try to win me back. It does suck though. It sucks having to be here even while he struggles through it.

[ten_oh_one_]

It wasn't directed toward you in particular, but you are included in the women who have to deal with alcoholics.

I don't understand how you can say that he doesn't drink that much if he blacks out, and says really hurtful things. How much beer does he drink at a time? And I never thought Tom would ever touch me. He had never been violent with me before ever. But things change. Alcohol is horrible and I wish it would go away.

[quixotic_nights]

He blacked out once, and that was the one time since we've started dating that he didn't drink beer. He normally doesn't drink more than a six pack... but he and I have now cut that back to three beers and only about once a week. He is trying really hard, and as long as he is I will be there.

The last time he went off on me he had only had about 5 beers. Just a little turns him into a different person though. That is why he isn't going over 3 now.

The second he hits the hard stuff or touches me again I am gone.
He knows that and that is why he is trying so hard.

I'm not making excuses for him. He as a problem. It just isn't causing me any pain at the moment, so I am holding his hand through it.

[quixotic_nights]

I meant hits the hard stuff again or touches me. He has not touched me yet.