I always follow this image, this link, this headline to find this page and my head drops. I see my feet. I see my hands. Instruments of expected failure. Did I ever actually believe in myself? I see my feet that did not carry me to that distant state. I see my hands that failed to write anything of use. I feel my forked tongue and the lies I told ( Read more... )

I just watched 'The Golden Compass' three times, in a row. Or something like that. And it is by far, in my very vast and wide viewing of movies from romance to sci-fi, the best move I have seen to date. Not just because it blends fantasy with hope, or faeries with the natural order of things. It was just a damn good movie. And it had armored polar ( Read more... )

your heart has a different set of beats. and each one serves a different purpose. some are helpful because they keep you alive. others are stressful and they boil your blood. right now I believe my heart is trying to kill me. Odd, I know. But it makes sense. It won't stay in my chest. I believe it is attempting to exit my body via my throat. It ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm supposed to be in this area. And I know it has only been five days since I have started job searching but I'm getting really discouraged. Mainly because I really like it here and I want to stay here. There are so many good people here and I have met many college age kids that seem really nice. Plus I knew a few people from various ( Read more... )

Praying for patience is not the brightest thing to do if you're an impatient person. I don't classify myself as an impatient person, but I obviously need help otherwise I wouldn't be praying for patience. Anyways. when you pray for patience, you generally go through situations in life that require patience so through trial you attain patience. I ( Read more... )

what is happening to everyone?

am I not a level headed person?

The Indian Lion was killed off because it was fearless of man.

What does that say about bravery? or fearlessness?

Ecclesiastes 2:16 "For of the wise man as of the fool there is no enduring remembrance, seeing that in the days to come all will have been long forgotten. How the wise man dies just like the fool ( Read more... )

What is it with people warning other people who are about to enter my life, for some reason or another, about my past? To make things worse the people doing the warning don't even know me. They were probably warned by someone else or looked me up on the good ol' internet. Neither of those are reliable sources. No one even knows what happened. Am I ( Read more... )

Have you ever asked yourself if your belief and faith in God is just to escape hell? I mean, I believe, I know it's true, I know God doesn't expect much from me and that it's a really easy decision, but thats just it. i mean, who would choose hell over heaven? Is that too simple. I guess that's my problem. I asked myself, and it just seems like I'm ( Read more... )