I hate myself. How I was feeling before? Yupp totally non existant anymore. Fuckin' a. I am sick and tired of feeling sooooo good one day, to feeling like not even wanting to live the next. That's sad, but it's not an exaggeration. I don't even know what does it, but it just happens. Sometimes I hate EVERYTHING about myself, I can't even stand it. ( Read more... )

Well I feel real good right now. Just two days ago I was feeling like I didn't matter, like I shouldn't exist, but now I feel good. I couldn't help but smile alll day today. I liked the way it felt. I still feel good too. In Cross Country we ran 7 and 1/2 miles, and I LOVED it! I felt so good during and after my run. It really gave me a chance to ( Read more... )

Alrihgt, so first off, I love my friends. They make my life so much better ( Read more... )

Fuckin' A...again.

Fuckin' A.

Ok so my dad got married. Surprised? Cause I am. Happened almost a week ago and I just found out today. Do you want to know how I found out? Well my dad sent my brother a TEXT message, then my brother told me. No phone call, no e-mail, a fucking text message. Thanks dad, love you too. God Damn.

I am pretty sick of myself right now.

So I am not feeling to good. Mentally and physically. It seems like I have like a constant stomach ache. It hurts even more after I eat ( Read more... )

Back to square uno.

Let this be a lesson to you folks. You can't change who you like. As much as you may want to, or tell yourself you need to, you just can't. Even if the person drives you nuts, there is something special about them that is simply irresistable.