One of the things I've learned with the CoMiyavi is that you don't have to be the best. You don't have to shine, or stand out, or be special. The most important thing to me in this world is to love and be loved. It's okay to be another face in the crowd - if you're in the right crowd. And you are. You have a family here that adores you, and together we create something beautiful with Miyavi every time we step into a live house. It's not accomplishment, it's just creation, but I think the latter is more important. I used to want to be the best, brightest, most important at something, too. Now I'm happier being part of a whole that is way, way more than the sum of its parts. I can tell you one thing - what WE are would not be the same without what YOU are. We'd lose something unquantifiable without you. You're one of the most special and important people in my life, especially. I can't tell you how to be the best, or find your niche - but I can tell you that I love you and for me, just being Steffu is enough to outshine anything else
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Or maybe we're just retarded...like everyone else.
I know I don't have to be the best at something...It's kind of a logical knowledge, but doesn't stop me from being stupidly hard on myself for 'sucking so much'. I think i'm also bothered a lot by the not being able to FINISH things.
Actually I KNOW I'm bothered by the not finishing things. If I finished things then I think I'd feel better about them....and definitely about myself. So Why don't I finish them...it's not that difficult...and yet...so...terribly...hard.
...lets see what happens when I finish this 1000 cranes project.
I'm becoming very determined to finally write the effing end of "At the end of the World." This crane project might not change anything in Japan, but I have a feeling it's going to change something about ME. Maybe.
I'm also considering taking rather crazy steps to get over my fear of Spiders. Random...but i am considering getting a pet Tarantula in the future...
Aww... I care, Stephie. The bad part is that I've been neglecting my LJ lately (only checking it whenever FB announces some sort of a downtime or DDOS attack) and apparently I don't have you on FB.
Lately work and family has reduced me to the mind of a gerbil. I don't even game or have the energy to write my thoughts in LJ like I used to and should. Only reason I moved to FB is that non-LJ people (aka relatives) uses the service and give me shit if I neglect checking there even for a freaking day.
You know what I do when I feel down or felt that I'm not being noticed? I volunteer in various things. I know it seems stupid, but I whenever I put aside some time to help others out, I feel like I'm being noticed and in a really positive light.
Things don't get fixed easily overnight. You just have to go one step at a time and sometimes it takes more than one try... all I know is that if it's one step in the correct direction, everything else will seem to fall in its place in time.
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THe answer must obviously lie in cracktastically candy-coated chocolate.
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I know I don't have to be the best at something...It's kind of a logical knowledge, but doesn't stop me from being stupidly hard on myself for 'sucking so much'. I think i'm also bothered a lot by the not being able to FINISH things.
Actually I KNOW I'm bothered by the not finishing things. If I finished things then I think I'd feel better about them....and definitely about myself. So Why don't I finish them...it's not that difficult...and yet...so...terribly...hard.
...lets see what happens when I finish this 1000 cranes project.
I'm becoming very determined to finally write the effing end of "At the end of the World." This crane project might not change anything in Japan, but I have a feeling it's going to change something about ME. Maybe.
I'm also considering taking rather crazy steps to get over my fear of Spiders. Random...but i am considering getting a pet Tarantula in the future...
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Lately work and family has reduced me to the mind of a gerbil. I don't even game or have the energy to write my thoughts in LJ like I used to and should. Only reason I moved to FB is that non-LJ people (aka relatives) uses the service and give me shit if I neglect checking there even for a freaking day.
You know what I do when I feel down or felt that I'm not being noticed? I volunteer in various things. I know it seems stupid, but I whenever I put aside some time to help others out, I feel like I'm being noticed and in a really positive light.
Things don't get fixed easily overnight. You just have to go one step at a time and sometimes it takes more than one try... all I know is that if it's one step in the correct direction, everything else will seem to fall in its place in time.
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