There are some things I've been trying to change about myself... and my thinking, maybe.

[teqsun]

There are some things that I have thought in the past and that I still think, deep down. I've been fighting and/or trying to fight these things because they go against... what I WANT (or what I think I want... or what others want me to) to think and feel. They make me feel selfish and wrong. They make me feel bad and guilty

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[anonymous]

I know what you mean about boys. It doesn't take much to come up with or learn something that will automatically but him on the "I can't fall in love with you" list. I'm picky. You're picky. We're all picky.

But even after over 5 hours of continuous one-on-one conversation and many other times of casual interaction and communication...I have nothing negative to say about E. There never was that "oh. Well, there was that one little thing." That thing that isn't a big deal, really. But it stands out in your mind. For whatever reason. And I think that's what's making my feelings strengthen. Is that the way it's supposed to work?

You are too hard on yourself sometimes. I am, too. That's why there are other people in our lives to keep us in check.

I can't bring myself to write in books. Even if they are mine. I keep separate journals with all of my notes from books.

Man...I want to get a look at that man.