can't shake the bad

[teresa_palan]

Can't shake the bad feeling about Sharon. I keep praying (my version) and it keeps right on being scary. Ususally I can talk myself out of it. I am very disappointed in myself for not letting go of the bad. It doesn't help and it robs today of some of its wonder.

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[teresa_palan]

Thank you. That is something I haven't thought of before. Thinking about "the worst" is something I've been fighting so hard and maybe I should just accept that that's what it is and move on. IT SUCKS but I can't change it and freaking out isn't helping either. I hate the idea of the kids growing up without Sharon. She is a kind and wonderful person and brings so much to the family. *but she's not gone yet* . Far from it, we're hoping to go see her tomorrow. If she's up for us....

Thanks.

total compassion here...

[trillyon]

*Hugs and love*

When my grandpa was diagnosed, the one Jack is named after, I just tried to keep thinking about how much I enjoyed his company whenever I was with him and hoped for as many days as I could get. It was still really hard, he being more a father to me than either of my own. But it was the only thing that got me through.

Re: total compassion here...

[teresa_palan]

I agree. I think of Sharon as more mom-like than my Mom ever was. I don't like her politics but its interesting to me that we mostly want the same things we just think they will be accomplished different ways. And she's gentle, laid back and patient with the kids, more sometimes than I think I will ever be. I hate that she's not doing well...I hate it so much. Each day is a gift, its something to keep in mind.

[bunnyshan]

I am here if you need me. :)