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[terps2755]

well it has been 3 days since school got out and i havent done much of anything. I went down the cape that was fun at times and not fun at other times because i would get upset about stupid things (i didnt think they were stupid at the time) i dont know whats wrong with me sometimes. ill be sittin there and all of a sudden feel completly alone even

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[watergupy]

Yeah, I know exactly what you mean about feeling alone. I can't really describe it but I get these scary whims of loneliness. I can have these severe panic attacks and I would count the minutes to when my family would get home. I would wait near the door like a dog. And when my parents would get into the house I would just overwhelm both of them. Then the next day, all I want is to be alone. I wouldn't want to return phone calls or to talk to anyone. I would count the minutes to how long I would be alone in the house until my parents would get home. It's so weird. It's these ups and downs, its really scary. And I think it's because I have no routine. If I had a schedule I would be all set. I guess I miss school.