been a while

[terrorjoy_v2]

Haven't posted since the last mental construct/crisis...no solution yet but I'm starting to consider the possibility that I'm just an idiot.

Time for lunch...but here's some lyrics just for the hell of it.

Here you go, everything that you wanted
wrapped up in a pretty little package you have it here
So long as you look with your eyes shut

Don't dare to touch it - it's just an illusion
a well-constructed fiction that I wrote just to get you here
Don't ask me why, I can't bear to admit it

I want it. I need it more than I need myself
Would you give it to me if I was someone else?
You are my nemesis. I can never resist you
this story can never have a happy ending

Storytelling, living on the surface you got me
never thinking twice about the fate you've condemned me to
I watch my life with my eyes shut

Rushing like a brush fire through all my senses
overload my mind with stimuli so I never stop to think to think
to think of all the reasons you're not good enough for me

I want it. I need it more than I need myself
Would you give it to me if I was someone else?
you are my nemesis. I can never resist you
this story can never have a happy ending

I never wanted this
I always wanted this
Your sweet corrupting kiss
Slings and arrows
Slings and arrows
Slings and arrows spelling my downfall

Here it is every little thing that you wanted
Wrapped up in a pretty little package you have it here
....

Shut your eyes
Close your mouth
Slam the door
and leave me the fuck alone

Shut me out
Close me in
Slam my fists
Through these walls

Story ends
No one wins
No one loses
but me.....