Comments | tessa_kun_chan: Well, I think I'm finally calm enough to talk about this some...

tessa_kun_chan

Well, I think I'm finally calm enough to talk about this some...

Jul 03, 2007 10:18

I've been holding off on posting about this for a couple days, as my emotions were still high, and I didn't want to type something I would probably regret later ( Read more... )

family, transgender

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tessa_kun_chan July 3 2007, 19:34:56 UTC

Well, in all defense to my psychiatrists (I always get the two mixed up) in the past, I was speaking to them bout my manic-depressiveness, not gender issues (One I did mention to him bout it, but I was more concerned bout the depression at the time, and he pretty much just brushed it off.)

I do understand about the not being able to run from it. I'm... I'm not really sure what I'm hoping for. Maybe a way to be satisfied with myself as I am, but I have my doubts and worries. I want to give this a shot first, I don't want to just give up.

I'm not Catholic, but the same pretty much applies. I'm techinically LDS (Though I've been having issues with the church lately) and I know that they don't look too kindly on people like us either. Having SRS is grounds to be excommunicated from the church, or barred from joining it.

Thanks for the support and advice though, it's nice to at least have someone to type to, if not talk to. :)

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tessa_kun_chan July 3 2007, 20:35:37 UTC

Interestingly enough, my wife agrees on the point that my GD is probably a root of a lot of my depression ( ... )

anonymous July 3 2007, 19:18:36 UTC

Please take everything I am about to say with an open mind. I'm recounting some of my own experiences here; they may very well not apply to you.

I thought I could run from this. I'd go buy women's clothing and wear it around and then for whatever reason- bin the stuff and be fine for a few weeks until I felt that pull.. the process repeats itself, and I'm fine again for another few weeks. I thought "yeah, it's expensive, but I can deal with this.." This was about 17, and I'd been feeling this way since 16.

And so I did. But as years went by, this got worse. As I continued to experiment, the more 'going back' to my male life felt wrong to me. I enjoyed being seen as female, percieved as female. At 18, I learned what a 'transsexual' was, that transition was possible. I started dressing again - regularly, but only in private - to make myself feel more comfortable after long days at school, to unwind ( ... )

tessa_kun_chan July 3 2007, 19:42:39 UTC

Thanks for sharing your experience and the encouragement. Right now I'm trying to figure it all out, and I'm honestly trying to not look too far into the future. The options there scare me.

I know that I can't run from my feelings though. I spent over half my life hiding my feelings from everyone, even myself, and now that they've been let lose I never want to lose them again.

faewren July 3 2007, 21:42:28 UTC

Just so people don't get the wrong impression of me, since I am the wife involved in this, I am no villain. Nor am I a victim. There are no victims or villains in this tale ( ... )

I'm your anonymous commenter gesundyke July 3 2007, 22:29:38 UTC

Please take everything I am about to say with an open mind. I'm recounting some of my own experiences here; they may very well not apply to you ( ... )