Comments | tetsu_sama69: It's a bad thing to say

tetsu_sama69

It's a bad thing to say

Jan 05, 2012 20:43

Things aren't getting better. My positive attitude is gone. I can post about my fandoms. Put pretty pictures up. I can act like I'm okay but it's just an act. Maybe when I do post it's the five seconds of time I feel like I am myself but I don't anymore ( Read more... )

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jesusluvsjaeho January 6 2012, 03:51:54 UTC

oh god, please don't.

i know i can't make you feel better/happier/positive. i know that. but reading this is just like "gah. no. i've seen this before. i hate how it ends."

nobody can stop you if it is really what you want to do. i know nobody managed to stop my best friend when she decided to put a gun to her head. she just waited until there was nobody around to stop her.

you aren't a parasite. i can't speak for you being psychotic or not. but that isn't a reason to kill yourself either. one of my best friends is psychotic...well, she's on anti-psychotics. she's bi-polar and schizophrenic. hell of a combo there. but she isn't a parasite.

and i don't believe you are either. i don't know the right things to say in a situation like this. i wish i did.

the best i can do is say i do care. for what that may be worth to you or in the general scheme of things.

tetsu_sama69 January 6 2012, 07:46:26 UTC

I'm just trying so hard and all but it's just... I don't know...

jesusluvsjaeho January 6 2012, 16:58:37 UTC

it's hard. it is so fucking hard, isn't it? nobody seems to care or they just don't seem to show it the right way or enough. it seems pointless. and like they would be better off without you. hell, like they would probably not even miss you. maybe even be a bit like "phew. thank goodness ( ... )

omg_its_gackt January 6 2012, 04:23:51 UTC

Reading something like this is really scary.

Please, try to seek help in some way. If you're really feeling this way, try to make it better for yourself by seeking help instead of trying to make things better on your own.

You're not a parasite. Don't think that way.

Please, take care of yourself.

tetsu_sama69 January 6 2012, 07:47:42 UTC

I don't know what to do for help.

red_audrey January 6 2012, 06:09:02 UTC

i know we don't talk much but i just want to say that i really sincerely hope that you don't go through with this. i know it may feel like it'd be doing people a favor with a depressed mindset but it's not true at all

i hope you'll seek help because things can become better even if it doesnt feel like it's possible
keep your head up, take care of yourself

tetsu_sama69 January 6 2012, 07:49:49 UTC

I've been doing that for months now and it's wearing on me.

spacepirate179 January 6 2012, 07:29:20 UTC

Please no...

I know we don't talk much anymore, but I still think of you as a friend and great person I've had fun with, and I'd be devastated if you did that to yourself...

I'm no good at words when it comes to giving advice or comforting anyone, all I can say is please try to seek out some help. You're too important to take your life, and change will come someday and things will get better if you keep going forward.

tetsu_sama69 January 6 2012, 07:50:33 UTC

I don't know what to do anymore.

ikuto January 6 2012, 07:56:10 UTC

I know things are looking particularly dark for you right now hun and I can only imagine just what's driven you to this - but in all honesty you are stronger than this, and I know its hard just to push through every day, but after tomorrow I'll have more time to spend with you, like we used to.

And WoW can only help for so long I can understand that and your sleep you'll settle into also. But I think its just a little bit of everything thats gradually built up and is like now surfacing thats probably got you, where you are now.

I don't judge you for it or think you're any less of a friend because you're such a lovely one and I couldn't stand to lose you, in any way, shape or form.

xxx

Love and hugs~