The Reinvention of Me Part 1

[texastschirgis]

I cannot even look back and remember what it was that used to make up the person that I see in pictures of past. But maybe that is the way it’s supposed to be. No one ever told me that in my early thirties I would feel slightly washed up and mostly done all the while frantically searching for who I was. Does everyone feel this way or is it just

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[anonymous]

I think that all of us women in our thirties deal with that!!! I mean there are so many things we are supposed to do and be. I struggle with not being married(even though that is happening soon) and n9ot being a mom. No matter how mothering comes to me I am going to be an old mother. I am not the person that I thought I would be either. But somehow we go on and realize this is where we are supposed to be!! I think you are absolutely AMAZING!! your kids are so blessed!!!!!!! I understand probably more than you think what you are going through.

[anonymous]

That last one was from Stacey Hawley

[navywifesd]

Amazing post... I am going thru a lot of the same emotions as you... pregnant w/ #4 at 38... hubby going out to sea again... knowing we will move to who knows where in a year...all I want to do is sit and watch tv. If I think too much... I will lose it.

thank you for writing... its nice to know there are others feeling the same thing and I am not totally crazy!

I think you are amazing for all you do!

[whistlererin]

I love your very real posts. I too struggle with identity and wanting to be more than just "mom". Of course I love being "mom" but is that all there is? And with all the uncertainty and transition of adoption, I feel really off balance some days.

But more and more I am learning to trust God and enjoy the beauty of each day. And every time something bad happens or when I think life is too overwhelming, I laugh and think, "well that will make a great blog post!"

Love you, friend. Remember that ministry is messy and you are feeling the weight of being a support to a busy hubby and changing the lives of six little (and big) people. No one said it was going to be easy!

[ext_137763]

Even though I love being a SAHM and homeschooling my kids, I often tell my single friends that they are fortunate to be where they are now. No one to worry about except themselves. I remember back when I was single how much I wanted to get married. And then when I got married, how much I wanted kids. I didn't enjoy the time that I was single or the time that I was married without kids because I was too focused on what I didn't have. But as much as I tell my single friends to enjoy where they are now, I know they won't be able to help but want someone to love and someone who will love them back. I guess that's human life. We always want what we don't have. ;)

I'm glad you started your blog up again! I missed hearing from you!

From amber =)

[anonymous]

I simply adore you! I think you are absolutely phenomenal. I'm here for you chica. ... wish I was closer....