A little help from my friends...
So, a little update, and a question.
Life has been pretty shitt-ay as of late, like just one thing after another. I'm trying to be positive and all, but it's just getting hard. I'm finally going to be a divorced woman, which leaves me feeling a really weird mixture of relief, sadness, regret, and hopefullness. It needed to happen so that I can keep moving forward, but no matter what anyone says, it's hard to not feel like a failure- like maybe you as a person have something fundamentally wrong. Even though I know intellectually that I did everything I could, I still feel this sense of failure on my part. IDK.
Also, work is making me want to just...give up. Like, walk out the door, pack my shit, and drive somewhere far away.
The post kajmere made about the internet the other day really touched me- I've had a lot of negative people in my life recently who look down on the kind of stuff I enjoy. Like, somehow, reading and fandom, conventions and stuff aren't "worthwhile" or "grownup" pursuits...this coming from the same people who spend thousands of dollars a year on shoes and fake handbags, etc, and I'm sorry if getting wasted with some dudes I don't know on a Friday night isn't my idea of fun. I mean, I generally listen to all their stories, and am like, oh, cool, that sounds great...so why can't I be afforded the same courtesy??! I think this episode of BBT sums it up perfectly:
And a question: What kind of present should I get my twin?
Something practical I know she can use but is boring, or something sentimental that's cool but I can't be 100% sure she'll like??
Life has been pretty shitt-ay as of late, like just one thing after another. I'm trying to be positive and all, but it's just getting hard. I'm finally going to be a divorced woman, which leaves me feeling a really weird mixture of relief, sadness, regret, and hopefullness. It needed to happen so that I can keep moving forward, but no matter what anyone says, it's hard to not feel like a failure- like maybe you as a person have something fundamentally wrong. Even though I know intellectually that I did everything I could, I still feel this sense of failure on my part. IDK.
Also, work is making me want to just...give up. Like, walk out the door, pack my shit, and drive somewhere far away.
The post kajmere made about the internet the other day really touched me- I've had a lot of negative people in my life recently who look down on the kind of stuff I enjoy. Like, somehow, reading and fandom, conventions and stuff aren't "worthwhile" or "grownup" pursuits...this coming from the same people who spend thousands of dollars a year on shoes and fake handbags, etc, and I'm sorry if getting wasted with some dudes I don't know on a Friday night isn't my idea of fun. I mean, I generally listen to all their stories, and am like, oh, cool, that sounds great...so why can't I be afforded the same courtesy??! I think this episode of BBT sums it up perfectly:
Click to viewAnd a question: What kind of present should I get my twin?
Something practical I know she can use but is boring, or something sentimental that's cool but I can't be 100% sure she'll like??