Secrets Post Forty Eight
Warning: Possibly triggering secrets under the cut.
Submissions Post Forty Nine will open shortly.
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One.
I really, really, really want to have sex but I don't want to lose it while my body is so out of shape and my skin is so rough and unattractive. I'm in my mid 20's and I need some action. I never had any.
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Two.
I make like $80K a year and spend about 30-45 minutes a day working. I fucking LOVE IT!
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Three.
Sometimes, I think about submitting something to Post Secret just to see if anyone will recognize that it's from me.
I wonder if my secrets aren't actually so secret.
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Four.
i'm becoming promiscuous and it's scaring me.
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Five.
An online game just saved my life.
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Six.
I wish I was depressed again. It made me feel more comfortable with my life.
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Seven.
i wish sometimes that i could go back to the first 3 weeks of cutting myself and just extend it ad infinitum. where no one knew. where it was my little secret that i had ultimate control over. but, just sometimes. currently i've gone two months without it.
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Eight.
The guy that I'm seeing has a girlfriend. He keeps telling me that he'll break up with her as soon as the lease on their apartment is up. I think I'm falling in love with him. Am I being an idiot for believing that he'll leave her for me?
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Nine.
I'm always sad over Christmas, I always have to spend it (quite literally) alone. It's kind of pathetic that I cry myself to sleep on Christmas Eve and wake up to cold leftovers and an empty home the next morning.
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Ten.
I don't think I'm suicidal, not really. I can't seriously imagine going through with it. But my life is so miserable right now. More often than not, when I go to bed at night, I just lie awake thinking of how much I hate all the things I have to do the next day. The only thing that's really comforting is reminding myself that I don't have to do anything, that I can just end it all whenever I want to.
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Eleven.
After all that time and the back and forth, you finally gave in.
I take it this means you never got over wanting me. Honestly, I've foolishly harbored hope this would happen, no matter what you said.
Yes, I know how wrong it is if we actually go all the way. That's never been in dispute.
But your voice is all I can think about. Is my touch all you've thinking about?
Where do we go from here? Are we still talking? Do you want more?
Or....are you going to deny everything and leave me hanging, again?
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