Comments | thacrayzeone: Meh

thacrayzeone

Meh

Jul 18, 2005 23:18

I have come to the conclusion that it sucks only having $128.47 left to your name, and doing and saying something horrible to the ones you love most and who have been there since day one and who have done everything in their power to help me in everyway possible has come to an end. That's right. One week from today the house I have spent the last ( Read more... )

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anonymous July 19 2005, 13:41:23 UTC

Wow sucks to be you. 1st of all, your life would be much better if you quit being dramatic. Evidently you do realize that you must grow up. It comes a time in life when you have to realize that nobody else can make your life better except yourself. Everybody who loves you and cares about you, you seem to push away. You have people in your life who do care about you, your family and one specific other person (no names) who loves you for "you". Treat those people right and you would be surprised how much more easier your life could be. Life is what you make it, if you make life miserable, its gonna be that way. Your attitude and anger has a big contribution why you are miserable. Change that and everything will be better. You have alot of things going on in your life right now which makes you feel like nothing is gonna be ok. If your attitude doesn't change it "won't" be ok. Actually it could make things worse. Only you can change how you are, nobody else. I hope you chose the right path in life now, because if you don't, ( ... )

................ anonymous July 19 2005, 15:42:42 UTC

I agree with most of what this person said Chris....SO many people do love you and you know that I do too...There is alot going on in your life right now, and honestly I don't know what I would do if I was in your footsteps. I really hope that you will be able to choose the right path in life and I think you will make it through all of this in time.

I love you babe!

<3 Megan

Re: ................ thacrayzeone July 21 2005, 03:15:22 UTC

I'm tryin to get on the right path, and as soon as it feels like life is going fine, I think back to that one day and how I made a big mistake and if I could take it back I would. Im happy one minute, and then its like how can you be happy when all this stuff you've done and said to loved ones should make you realize what u did.

Tuff.. thacrayzeone July 21 2005, 03:20:35 UTC

Ok mom, first of all you've always told me "treat other how you want to be treated". I guess this past month its come to show that the way I treat people reflects on others and I get treated the same way. I now understand why you yell, scream, and holler its because you r giving me a taste of my own medicine. I don't know if I am right but thats what I think. Our talk today really helped a lot, and I don't know what I would do, where I'd be or what I would be doing right now if it weren't for you and dad. Thanks. I love you guys even if you think I don't. Nobody has been there by my side more than you guys have.

Things will get better if you want them to anonymous July 19 2005, 18:03:41 UTC

It sounds like you are going through a lot of hardships, according to your journal. I have never used this journal thing before so hopefully this gets to you. When I first met you I thought that you were a great person and I still do. You have a great sense of humor, and trust me when I say the whole world is not against you. I don't know if you will take what I say seriously, but hopefully you will enough for it to have meaning. According to your journal, it sounds to me like you have realized what is important in life, and that is a GOOD THING. Now, the only thing to do is correlate your actions with your words, even if it seems impossible. Those people that have always loved you will not stop loving you, but you may need to earn their respect back; which could be understandable. Growing up is hard to do and college is stressful. Believe in you, get through those bumps, and yes, treat people how you want to be treated. I believe in you and you can do it, I have no doubts. No one said life is easy, but it sure is short. ( ... )

Re: Things will get better if you want them to thacrayzeone July 21 2005, 03:09:59 UTC

Aww... Katie, how I will miss you. I miss Geography and all the fun times we had. We should maybe get together sometime if u want to. It'll be cool. Just IM me on AIM sometime don't be shy lol. Thanks for the advice. Maybe you can help me out a little.

You can take this advice or leave it! anonymous July 19 2005, 21:41:00 UTC

Chris, you have nobody but yourself to blame. You made some bad decisions. Have you tried talking with your mom and dad face to face?? Leave your anger somewhere else during that time. Your anger plays a big part in all of this. It has caused you many friends, girlfriends, and family members. Have you ever considered going to talk to someone about it? As for college that would be the last thing I would give up. Delta has many good 2 year programs. If you end up on your own you need to go to Delta and ask what kind of help you can get. You can do this. You might even qualify to stay in a dorm there. You are a good person deep down inside. Forgive yourself, pick yourself up off the ground, brush yourself off, and get started as the new improved Chris Seibel. Good luck! Love, Anonymous

Re: You can take this advice or leave it! thacrayzeone July 21 2005, 03:12:59 UTC

First of all, im not blaming anyone else but myself. I blame myself 100% for what I have done and how I treated people the last year let alone this past month. I don't know who you are but thanks for the comments, and I will try to kepp my head up high and do the best I can. It'll take me some time to forgive myself espacially when I dont even know who I am. I mean I will take the advice and I will run with it only to forgive myself and pray others forgive me. I mean what else is there to do?