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[thad_duir]

Ok, I am going to push out an update whether it wants to come out or not....Ok hold on, I need to go make a tea for this

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[merlinwon]

Nice to see an update from you...

I get at that point to .. where as ... lots of money wouldn't impress me much.. it would be nice but.. It seems with me to boil down to .. "why am i here..and is there any more that i could be doing to help or progress in my life.. " ...

Good thoughts and energies for your elbow..

as far as the post being depressing? You're just stating things how they are and how it is ... depressing or not.. no need to apologize.. have you been reading up me? Now THAT'S depressing... and i chuckle while typing this because i know there are GOOD people out there like you.. who understands!

Luv u's Thad!!

[thad_duir]

Thanks buddy. You always make me smile.

[corampopulo]

I read this post a few times, it really resonated with me. I think the word for this state of being is "ennui", though it doesn't fit the circumstances exactly.

It frustrates the hell out of me most days, I feel like I should have a greater purpose. Maybe that is just me buying into the marketing crap from the "new age" industry.

[thad_duir]

'Ennui'is a good term, though it would suffice a bit better if it also included apathy as a factor, because it is the apathetic part that keeps my progression in check. I don't really CARE to put forth more effort to do more. Sometimes, I confuse it with laziness but I am not sure that is it, because when I do, rarely these days, become passionate about something the apathy dissolves and I go balls to the wall for what ever that thing is, BUT that rarely happens now, so I am not sure laziness actually plays a role. I am absolutely sure apathy does though.