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i am at a point in my life that i just don't know what tommorrow will bring. i always picture what i would like to happen in all types of situations but of course, it never turns out how i would like for it to be. i am confused about so many things and no matter how hard i try not to think about them, those questions and visions always pop up.
i am always scared that i will die a horrible, unexpected death. or that i will become addicted to a drug and die slowly. you see, i am not a druggie or anything but i am all for trying all types of different things and living in the moment or whatever. i hate to let oppurtunities pass me by. the other day i was watching the movie 'sudden death' and it just got me to thinking into really deep thoughts. no one ever knows when they are going to die or when they are in danger and that scares the shit out of me. that same morning i had to go pick my sister up from her orthodontist appt. and i was so scared to go get her. i was scared that i was going to get hit by someone or that i would get into a really bad wreck and i'd just die. i mean, death is so unexpected and sudden, that no one ever knows when it is coming. you can't even take certain percautions for death. i am scared.