horrific realizations

[thatdirtyblonde]

Comments

[patomustdie]

I don't really have a comment to make here, but I just thought I'd take the time to congratulate you on the time/effort/balls it takes to do something like this. Good luck pulling your head out of your ass.

See you around.

[tmcm]

It's nice to see a new post from you. I've enjoyed your writting.

This latest entry is a sad one. At least you're figuring things out now. I'm sure you'll figure things out - you won't be lonely your whole life. Don't be silly.

[thatdirtyblonde]

maybe lonely isn't the right word for it. i just don't think i will ever feel as if i am a permanent part of anything.

[tmcm]

I think your feelings are totally normal. I felt that way, till I had kids (not that I'm suggesting anything like that). I used to call it my 'existential loneliness.' Sometimes it would last for a couple months.

Things will get better.

I miss your frequent journal entries. They always cheered me up. You're a funny/honest writer. I loved it. I'm sorry that someone was exploiting your journal for insider information. Not fair at all. You deserve better. I hope you fire up with your regular entries again.

[pegboy]

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some friend.

[thatdirtyblonde]

see, spencer... jokes like that are not funny right now.

thanks for the support!

Re: some friend.

[pegboy]

basically you called me an asshole, so i responded how i normally would in such a situation. with humor.

sorry, if after reading that i didn't have the reaction you were shooting for by getting pissed or irritated.

[jsmusic]

So many girls have the same exact problem you've discovered in yourself, and it seems that I've had a crush on all of them at one point or another or will sooner or later. My problem is that there's not an ounce of badboy in me, meaning that I don't stand a chance. In short, we're noth attracted to the wrong thing.

[tempestinmymind]

I initially read your journal (or as much as I was allowed to see) out of morbid curiosity about what my ex-boyfriend was up to. Now that I see this I just felt compelled to comment. I don't give a fuck that Spencer will see it. I, as a woman (especially as a woman who dated Spencer for quite a while) know all too well what you are talking about. I couldn't have expressed what you said any clearer. I respect you enormously for putting it out there.

a public entry is a public entry is a public entry. it only belongs to me.

[thatdirtyblonde]

[insert joke about going out for drinks here]

but seriously, thank you.

Re: a public entry is a public entry is a public entry. it only belongs to me.

[tempestinmymind]

Nah, we're not recruiting right now (unless you are interested...)

;)

Good writing is good writing. I felt it deserved acknowledgment. Simple as that.