Reinventing my image

[thatgirly]

I've decided that there is a decent chance that I could actually go somewhere with this job I'm about to start, so I'm going to invest energy into be as promotable as possible. I sort of despise the fact that in order to do this, one should look the part as well as act the part, but it's true, and in order to look the part you need to dress the

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[ariadnemarie]

Your adult transformation is getting more serious by the day!

I am the same way with body size... someone much larger than me is beautiful so why am I so concerned with my weight? I think it is one of those insanities reserved for women.

[thatgirly]

I know! I'm playing dress up for reals!

I think you're right. I just feel like we're smart, forward-thinking, capable women, and should therefore be somehow immune. (And I guess, by extension I must feel that all the average and below-average intelligence/capability women out there can suck it. I've clearly thought this through really well)

For me at least, I think it's complicated by the fact that I know the health statistics, and I do want to lose some weight for future-me's sake. I find it really hard to unwrap myself from the self-shaming about my weight while still making an effort to do something about my weight. And it's only natural that all this might lead to stress eating/drinking, which is just a lovely way to deal with one's problems.

[karinablack]

It's ridiculous that women have to care this much about our appearance beyond basic hygiene in order to get/keep a job, but it is a fact :(

People make assumptions based on appearances and, unfortunately, sometimes they're accurate :(

[thatgirly]

Yes. I think it's also true for men, but to a much, much lesser extent.

I hate to play into that shit, but I guess not enough to not play into it. I wish I could just dress up because I want to, and leave the part where it's pragmatic to do so out of it.