suicide is painless

[thatguynextdoor]

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[stumbleine_one]

I hope you never fully understand the feeling of suicide because then that means you want to know what it feels like to die.
I'm not sure if this post was just a realization or a bit of a scare because you understand a bit more of the feeling of loneliness and helplessness.
But i hope you are doing well Dan.

[thatguynextdoor]

I meant it more as a realization. I am in no way considering suicide. Nor do expect to consider it any time soon. I just happened to hear about it somewhere or other a day or two ago and thought about it a little bit. I remembered back to a time I was about 16 or 17 and driving to school and I heard about a boy my age committing suicide. And I clearly remember thinking that that could never happen to me. I just couldn't fathom how anyone could ever consider the possibility. Now this time I could actually conceptualize that there is sadness or despair enough in the world that someone could think of suicide as a viable option. Each year during RA training, I thought about it a little bit. Usually in a context of how I would help someone else. This time I actually thought about it enough to put my thoughts into words.

[thecrazedhermit]

"Nor do expect to consider it any time soon."

As if you were considering a swith from Coke to Pepsi.

:)

Never, ever consider it, Dan. Trite but true, where there is life there is hope. Particularly for a fellow with all of your advantages. Life may get you down, but it could always, always be worse.

[thatguynextdoor]

Very true. And to those people who have IMed and e-mailed me. Thank you for your concern. I appreciate it. Just to be totally clear: I am not in anyway planning to take my own life, this was post was intended as an observation.