You are Captivating...
I wrote Jen a letter that i'm gonna go drop off at her house so when she gets home from Florida she'll find it on her bed. I've just been thinking about what has been going on with her lately, and i just had to tell her somehow what i felt about the whole situation...
My dearest Jennifer…
I’m so glad you are back, ‘cause I have missed you sooooo incredibly much. I seriously don’t know what I would do without you, because for the past two weeks, if I wasn’t with Simoner, I was bored out of my mind. I don’t think that I realize how lucky I am to have a friend like you until you aren’t around. So I am ecstatic that you are home so that we can start planning the next year of our life together at CLEMSON! woop woop. I’ve found that you are so much of my best friend that it’s almost like we are sort-of sisters. I can tell you anything that I am feeling and know that you wont laugh (well unless its something terribly stupid), and that you will know exactly what to do in my situation. I’ve come to realize that when you are happy it’s contagious, but also when you are hurting or upset that I feel the same way. This brings me to this past week…
I don’t think that there was a full hour this past week that I haven’t thought about you and Sunday night. Just to hear you on the phone so far away killed me… to know that you are hurting and that I can’t be there to hug you or give you “BFF Forever” advice. I don’t know how anyone could hurt you like that, ‘cause personally, I don’t ever think that you could ever hurt anyone in that way. You care too much about people, and their feelings, to be so inconsiderate. And that is why I love you soooo much Jennifer. You care about people, and from your everyday actions you can tell that you are a true Christ-like example… at least in my life. And for that I say thank you…
So I know this is all cheesy and such to be telling you this (so if it is just skip it or something), but I just truly figured this out during this past month. You probably already know this, but it’s something that we just need to be reminded of sometimes. God has an amazing guy out there for you. This guy is 10,000 times better than any guy that you have ever been interested in. When people told me that in this past year, I just shook my head and said to myself, “how can there be anyone out there in the world better than ____?” But there is. And I know this for sure. You are a beautiful, talented, sweet, caring, honest, AMAZING girl… and the guy that you end up with will be all of those things as well. God is sitting up there in heaven just waiting for the exact moment for you to meet him, and when you meet him… you will definitely know. I don’t want this to be too mushy and such, but I’ve been reading a book that I am definitely going to let you borrow, but this struck me as something that every girl needs to hear… so even if you weren’t feeling a little bit hurt, I’d still tell you…
“God has set within you a femininity that is powerful and tender, fierce and alluring.
No doubt it has been misunderstood. Surely it has been assaulted.
But it is there, your true heart, and it is worth recovering.
You are captivating.”
-Captivating by John and Stasi Eldredge
And you are captivating Jennifer. I want you to know that I love you to bits. People admire you Jennifer… whether you know it or not. I know of people that wish they could be as cute and sweet and caring as you. The way that no matter what you are going through, you never take it out on anyone else… and you get through it with a smile and with grace. Captivating you are, and I just thought you should know it. So know that you don’t need him to be amazing… or happy… I know you know that…
So I know this whole situation sucks, and if it means anything, I think it was a horribly stupid move on his part… but in a few months (maybe even days) you will just laugh at this. I know you will. CB told me once that “guys aren’t worth crying over, and the one that is wont make you cry.” It’s cheesy, yes, but so true. So no tears my babycakes… all smiles and fun… ‘cause college is 27 days away and we are gonna have such a BLAST.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH JENNIFER!!
: : muah : :
Your BFF Forever,
Ashery
I went to dinner with some of the ERBC girls... and we were gonna go to church, but because of the storm we decided to go back to Megan's house and watch a movie. We ended up just talking about a whole bunch of stuff and skipping a movie. I had an energy drink... and i was laughing at anything remotely funny... and i dont know why. hmmmm... no more Full Throtle i suppose. I have work the entire rest of the week. ugh. fun fun.
call me if you wanna hang out during the day cause i dont go in until 7 all week.
God is love,
<3 ash
My dearest Jennifer…
I’m so glad you are back, ‘cause I have missed you sooooo incredibly much. I seriously don’t know what I would do without you, because for the past two weeks, if I wasn’t with Simoner, I was bored out of my mind. I don’t think that I realize how lucky I am to have a friend like you until you aren’t around. So I am ecstatic that you are home so that we can start planning the next year of our life together at CLEMSON! woop woop. I’ve found that you are so much of my best friend that it’s almost like we are sort-of sisters. I can tell you anything that I am feeling and know that you wont laugh (well unless its something terribly stupid), and that you will know exactly what to do in my situation. I’ve come to realize that when you are happy it’s contagious, but also when you are hurting or upset that I feel the same way. This brings me to this past week…
I don’t think that there was a full hour this past week that I haven’t thought about you and Sunday night. Just to hear you on the phone so far away killed me… to know that you are hurting and that I can’t be there to hug you or give you “BFF Forever” advice. I don’t know how anyone could hurt you like that, ‘cause personally, I don’t ever think that you could ever hurt anyone in that way. You care too much about people, and their feelings, to be so inconsiderate. And that is why I love you soooo much Jennifer. You care about people, and from your everyday actions you can tell that you are a true Christ-like example… at least in my life. And for that I say thank you…
So I know this is all cheesy and such to be telling you this (so if it is just skip it or something), but I just truly figured this out during this past month. You probably already know this, but it’s something that we just need to be reminded of sometimes. God has an amazing guy out there for you. This guy is 10,000 times better than any guy that you have ever been interested in. When people told me that in this past year, I just shook my head and said to myself, “how can there be anyone out there in the world better than ____?” But there is. And I know this for sure. You are a beautiful, talented, sweet, caring, honest, AMAZING girl… and the guy that you end up with will be all of those things as well. God is sitting up there in heaven just waiting for the exact moment for you to meet him, and when you meet him… you will definitely know. I don’t want this to be too mushy and such, but I’ve been reading a book that I am definitely going to let you borrow, but this struck me as something that every girl needs to hear… so even if you weren’t feeling a little bit hurt, I’d still tell you…
“God has set within you a femininity that is powerful and tender, fierce and alluring.
No doubt it has been misunderstood. Surely it has been assaulted.
But it is there, your true heart, and it is worth recovering.
You are captivating.”
-Captivating by John and Stasi Eldredge
And you are captivating Jennifer. I want you to know that I love you to bits. People admire you Jennifer… whether you know it or not. I know of people that wish they could be as cute and sweet and caring as you. The way that no matter what you are going through, you never take it out on anyone else… and you get through it with a smile and with grace. Captivating you are, and I just thought you should know it. So know that you don’t need him to be amazing… or happy… I know you know that…
So I know this whole situation sucks, and if it means anything, I think it was a horribly stupid move on his part… but in a few months (maybe even days) you will just laugh at this. I know you will. CB told me once that “guys aren’t worth crying over, and the one that is wont make you cry.” It’s cheesy, yes, but so true. So no tears my babycakes… all smiles and fun… ‘cause college is 27 days away and we are gonna have such a BLAST.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH JENNIFER!!
: : muah : :
Your BFF Forever,
Ashery
I went to dinner with some of the ERBC girls... and we were gonna go to church, but because of the storm we decided to go back to Megan's house and watch a movie. We ended up just talking about a whole bunch of stuff and skipping a movie. I had an energy drink... and i was laughing at anything remotely funny... and i dont know why. hmmmm... no more Full Throtle i suppose. I have work the entire rest of the week. ugh. fun fun.
call me if you wanna hang out during the day cause i dont go in until 7 all week.
God is love,
<3 ash