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Nov 04, 2005 18:52

I'm not being melancoly ( Read more... )

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sgrsmk November 5 2005, 06:00:39 UTC
Nothing to make fun of. I think all of us suffer from what you just explained on some level. Mine is pretty intense. I want to fit in and be liked and be interesting and fun to everyone. I want everyone around me to be happy and proud and feel like they belong. I dislike hurting anyone's feelings or doing anything which I think will be upsetting to them. So much so that I end up stifling my thoughts and actions and angering myself so I don't anger others. This of course always backfires. It's so much a problem with specific people and events that I end up doing myself an injustice. I sometimes am mildly ashamed of myself and contemplate telling lies to morph what is really happening to something I think the other party will approve of. Really it's a huge personal challenge to keep in check. I will at some point become 100% okay with who I am and what I do ( ... )

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balance thatmikeguy November 6 2005, 21:49:28 UTC
yep -- definitely requires some balance. Because I'm almost always erring on the side of caution, I think I could use a little more candidness though. Sounds like maybe he balances you out well in that way ;)

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davel_jonez November 5 2005, 07:51:56 UTC
maybe you should join fight club.

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thatmikeguy November 6 2005, 21:50:52 UTC
clever.

not a big fan of the punching part... I could probably do with the multiple personality disorder though :)

I still haven't actually read that book.

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slutbunwalla November 6 2005, 01:17:45 UTC
I've got a nice buzz on, myself.
I'm waiting for my plane back to SF.
In terms of social conscience, I mostly hate getting in trouble. I tend to not take risks because of that.

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thatmikeguy November 6 2005, 21:53:13 UTC
Hmm... a buzz often helps reduce my social inhibition ;) I'm still involuntarily nice and considerate though... heh.

guess maybe you're back now?? welcome back if so :)

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coleyhoney November 6 2005, 04:29:05 UTC
is this all because i saw you the other night but we never talked?? :D

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;) thatmikeguy November 6 2005, 21:54:20 UTC
heheh... nope. There are actually underlying motivations, but they are things I honestly think I should keep to myself. However, they bring up the point that there are a lot of things I probably shouldn't. It's all a matter of degrees.

I would love to hang out with you more however :)

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athenah2so4 November 6 2005, 07:55:53 UTC
I've seen a lot of that stuff in you, but you don't really throw it in people's faces, I suppose. You're certainly self-contained, but not cut off or unreadable, at least from my perspective...of course, I'm nuts, so I may have special powers of perception or something.

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thatmikeguy November 6 2005, 21:55:41 UTC
yeah -- it's definitely there. There are certainly some emotions that I clearly display... just never to the degree that I'm experiencing them, and never if it will make someone else feel bad.

I'm nuts too, just in a different manner... I'm pretty sure we all are in our own ways ;)

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