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[thatmikeguy]

I'm increasingly aware that I have more resilience than is good for me. I weather compulsions, conceptualizations, aspirations, and epiphanies constantly. Why can't I just reach a fucking breaking point for once? How can I stand my state of existence in the face of my potential

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[athenah2so4]

I think a lot of people feel responsible for very odd things...it's hard for many people to differentiate between their responsibility for how they impact the world, and responsibility for that world itself. I'm not sure if that's a thing for you, but it's an observation I've made about a lot of people before.

yah,

[thatmikeguy]

I don't so much have that problem... my problem is more that I have put myself in a position of having immense amounts of responsibility for things that aren't truly important to me... my job for instance. I don't really care about video-games... I mean, they're fun, but they just don't matter in the end to me. The problem is that I DO care about fulfilling my responsibilities when I purposefully commit to something, which is why I would never just drop my job responsibilities. I just need to move in a new direction soon... I might stay in this industry, because it's a great environment to work in and pays well, but I need to look at moving into a less stressful position and accepting the realities of not making myself responsible for everything working

Hi Mike

[stephanova]

How can I stand my state of existence in the face of my potential?

That's a fucking brilliant sentence.

I'm excited to see what you decide to change.

Re: Hi Mike

[joymattingly]

Indeed a brilliant brilliant statement. . . . how can i stand my state of existence in the face of my potential?

this is the most amazing statement i've ever heard about the overwhelmingess of one's place in the world.

Re: Hi Mike

[thatmikeguy]

I'm very excited by the fact that I stated anything that was in any way the most amazing thing you have ever heard :D

p.s. that's because you rock :)

Re: Hi Mike

[thatmikeguy]

I like the sentence too... I'm just disturbed by the implications of it (although simultaneously driven/excited about it) ;)

I am just going to start working on getting involved in some things I really care about, and look at a slightly longer term plan of moving toward doing that exclusively. I think it's time I applied my abilities to something that has an impact that I FEEL. I have to look somewhat long term though, because I want to see my current gig through.

[sgrsmk]

Hi :-D
What's wrong with being responsible? You *are* responsible for your own mental state of mind and emotions and bleh bleh. I think the opposite of YOU is those people who blame others or past misfortunes for their current shortcomings. And those people generally suck.. so yea, I prefer my Mikes infected w/ Responsibiliticity :-D

:)

[thatmikeguy]

Yeah, I'm going to continue to be infected with responsibiliticity... I just want to make the targets of my responsibiliticity more appropriate ;)

oh, and

[thatmikeguy]

Thanks :)

feeding your soul

[sadiejones]

so I wrote a big reply to this the other night and it got wiped out- so here i go again

Re: feeding your soul

[thatmikeguy]

thank you for reading/responding :)

I definitely feel like I am progressing along these lines, and becoming more open, aware, and assertive about doing things that are truly important to me. I think I have always filled my life with things I love and enjoy, but I don't think I've ever put myself in a position where they were things I consider the most important (if you were to ask me to prioritize) are my highest priority. You would think they automatically would be, but I think my tendency toward working the system and following the rules has kept me from realizing possibilities.

I'm pretty excited about it :)

Anyway... I'll tell pat, and yeah, I hope I have some epiphanies (other than "DON'T MOVE TO ALABAMA!" of course ;)

Re: feeding your soul

[sadiejones]

i'm excited too!

kiss emma for me and tell everyone else hi and call me if you get bored : )