Ok, so like today was awsome.  I met Andrew!!!  <3<3<3  He is like so awsome.  I like him like hella alot.  We talked for hours today, and it was like...::sigh::  I get to go to church with him tomarrow.  So exciting.  It was odd though, cause I opened up to him so much, and I dont do that with anyone.  He said that he was gonna call me back ( Read more... )

Just updating about my last few posts.  I have aquired a great defense team, and a really good team of people that will be defending me in a court of law when I go in.  I have numerous people that are going to testify that the encounter was provoked over a long exposure of time.  I have called all stops, and made the trial rock solid.  I have ( Read more... )

I fucked up, really bad this time. I talked to my attorney today, and if things dont go just right, not only will I be locked up, but the simple fact that I am almost 18 means that they might try me as an adult, and I will end up in jail, like real adult jail. I am so scared. Noone in my family knows this, I dont want them to know that I am ( Read more... )

Okay, so I am back. I DID however get picked up, and booked in the juvi tonight, but they let me go like an hour later cause my mom came to pick me up, and I have a clean record. I am being charged with a felony for assult with a deadly weapon. I guess that I should have not been so impulsive. Whatever, I did what I thought was right, she ( Read more... )

Ok, so my mom said that once I go back to school, I will get my car registered again...Hmmm, I wonder, is it worth it to go to a school where I am only bound to be a failure, and feel worse than I already do, and get my car registered, and not have to deal with people that I dont know, and not have to think about the fact that I am probably not ( Read more... )

So, like I went on my run this evening, and when I got home, I got online, k, and I went to a gay bois chat room, and met this guy, Chris.  He is so fucking cool.  I didnt think that I like ever had anything in common with any guys that are my age, and he is like, just like me.  We have the same frame of mind, and...well, I dont know, but I really ( Read more... )

Ok, so I have decided that in my quest for thinness, I will have to...A)quit smokin, and B)start exersizing alot more than I currently do, as definition with the thinness is a must for me. Well, off to run in the dark night.  Is there anyone around Long Beach that would like to be like a running buddy or something, cause it is so hard to do it ( Read more... )

Ok, so my mom doesnt like my gw, but that is to fucking bad for her.  Anyway, so like I have eaten nothing but a can of tuna with Mustard in it, (to keep down the calories), that I have kept inside of me, in the past week or so.  I think that is how long it has been, I dont really know anymore.  The days seem to blend into eachother, and I dont ( Read more... )

The whole world turned inside out,
And existance seemed to be unreal,
The life I led never felt so at ease.
Birds sang outside my walls,
And birds chirped late into the night,
All my thoughts seemed to fade away,
Into my thoughts of what COULD be,
My arms were open to your embrace,
And my lips craved to enlock with yours,
MY hand had never felt such ( Read more... )

I can not stand people of the male species sometimes, they are so fucking hard to deal with, and take things to the heart, and take it all out of context without knowing the history behind things, or what has gone on in peoples lives that makes them the way that they are. grrrrrr.