new background
so, i dropped out of uwf for a variety of reason ranging from lack of funds to lack of discipline. and on the friday after new years i went to meps. i scored a 95 on the asvab, qualified for, applied for, and was accepted into the navy nuclear power program. on may 13 i am to present myself to my recruiter and on may 14 i will be shipped off to recruit training(as a seaman E-3) in illinois for two months. then i will be shipped to charleston SC for 12 months, while there i will undergo "A" school as a electronics technician(ET) and then attend nuclear power school(between these two i will be promoted to Petty Officer). after that i will either be assigned to NY or remain in SC for nuclear prototype training for another 6 months. after this i plan an volunteering for sub school and will then probably be deployed on Virginia class submarine.
my father was, in no small part, one of the main reasons that i choose the navy. i still feel as if the right thing would have been to join up with the army or the marines(seeing how i voted for bush) even though this war is wrong, evil, and stupid; i believe that i have a responsibility to do what i can to protect the men i sent to the front. but...my father tried so hard to keep me out...i just did not want to hurt him. morality should never conflict with ethics, yet it does all the time. why?
i have been ashamed of the fact that i have dropped out of school. its just that i know i should have been able to finish. and i feel as if leaving is to admit defeat. so i avoided the subject as much as possible and lied to just about everyone i knew, all in an effort to convince myself that the lie was true. sorry. i still want, and in fact need, to go back to uwf some time to see everyone(and to get all of my stuff, that is unless you guys want to by it off me)
i want to ship off sooner than may, but i have to wait for a slot in my "A" school to open up first.
there are some movies i want to go to, but i still refuse to go alone. so if any of yous want to see one of the following let me know: "Pans Labyrinth", "Little Miss Sunshine", "300(when it comes out)", "Children of Men(already saw it, but want to see it again)"