I fucked your mother now I'm the motherfucking man

[v00d00ch1ld]

Due to a multitude of factors that have surfaced recently, I've decided to take a leave of absence from the community. After tonight I came very close to leaving, however a few things (well, mainly one person ;) ) have persuaded me to spend some time away and think it over. I'll be off pondering whether or not I'm going to stay for the next few

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[flood]

I'll miss you while you're gone.

[v00d00ch1ld]

You're far too kind. :)

[flood]

I am not kind to anyone that doesn't deserve it.

Jessica aka Holeinmysock...

[v00d00ch1ld]

I'm so sorry I didn't respond to you, your window didn't pop up. But I got your messages and your presence may help keep me around too. You came back for me, so I might come back for you. <3

[meatequalsbad]

i don't really know you that well, but i thought you were intelligent and isightful. i hope to see you back here.

[sensuousx]

Matt, I know you're leaving because Jackie is uncomfortable, and I know her discomfort is in my hands. I feel like I should mention two things. Jackie seems introspective and classic, but I dont think anyone can rely on her definition of elite. [One can be elite without a realistic self-view, and be immature at the same time; being elite is a function of one's accomplishments, ideologies, and the like.] Her application only reaffirmed a misconstrued [perhaps idealistic] self view.

I feel like I should say I've liked you all along but now I am disappointed. Tell Jackie I apologize and that this is only a community. Tah.

[v00d00ch1ld]

To be truthful, I've been meaning to get away for a while, as I'm just not really in the mood to be outright asserting my superiority right now (only passively through my actions). However, her rejection, and moreover the overtly rude and unnecessary comments directed at her (spearheaded by you) pushed me over the edge. Jackie is not uncomfortable (like you said, it's just a community), she's a very secure person who has done a lot in her short life (like me, she started her college career at 14, and that's the tip of the iceburg). If you truly did like me, you would have had the decency to show at least basic human respect to someone I care about. Others were able to say no in a constructive fashion, and it upset me to see a few people think that it would be good fun to tee off on her. I admittedly have a pension for being rude, however I try to keep it above the belt

[sensuousx]

I'm struck only by your closing comment. You took your place in the community very seriously [prior to Jackie's application]. I wont say you were tormenting, but you certainly were inforcing and meticulous. I hope you understand the way I vote and know I treat every applicant the same. I honestly meant no harm to Jackie.

[v00d00ch1ld]

Believe me when I say I took this very lightly. I may have carried myself differently, but that's solely due to the fact that I do take my fun seriously. Also in the last couple weeks I've been forcing very deep changes in my life. So my prior attitudes have changed drastically. Furthermore, I realized how terrible this can make someone feel, as I felt wretched seeing Jackie get picked apart. When someone acts like a pompous jerk, I will treat them with an appropriate disdain. However I no longer wish to tear down someone undeserving. I fully understand the manner in which you vote (and I've undoubtedly emulated it in the past), but it's something I'm not going to let myself do anymore. My thinking is quite muddled right now, I'm distracted, and have no business writing. I'm sure I could better articulate myself later, and in order to prevent my image further harm, I shall bid you a good night now.